Useless;

Why am i so useless? i gave the letter to the teacher, and he prob only read the first sentence of each paragragh. He just gave the letter back, saying extension 2 isn't stressful its just.... meaning that im probaly too dumb to do it. When he says things like that i start thinking that im probaly really dumb. I kno that some people out there don't think i can do it either.

I don't kno whats wrong with me. I don't normally cry that much over 4U math as well. I have heaps of reasons in my head that i always think i have the courage to say to him. But as soon as i see him, and when he says i can't do it, i start losing confidence and can barely stop myself from crying. extension 2 right now is a forbidden topic for me, cos i start crying everytime it gets mentioned (not to that extent) but you get what i mean. I want my parents to call up, but they don't even kno what to say. Theres a parent inteview in week 3 and it's probaly gonna be too late then.

Right now i don't kno if im crying cos i really want to do it or just so i can get some sympthy. I don't kno, im a mess right now. And like jennifer said its nothing to be crying over, i should be strong. The moment i cry means im giving up. But i can't help to. It really hurts =[ when he says my level isn't high enough to do extension 2 math. But i've really grown into liking extension 2 math. i can't say that i wont drop it during the year, but right now im really postive that i can do it. So why can't you give me a chance? If i do get 4U (doubt it) ill look at these posts the past dew days so i can gain the motivation back. But i really doubt at this rate ill get it. i feel like im pulling everyone down, i was so confident that ill do it, but now im scared that ill get bad marks and pull everyone down. I kno im contradicting myself compared to what i said in the lines before. But like i said im a mess right now. I don't kno what to do. I have amazing people standing beside me supporting me, telling me not to cry. I don't even kno why im crying....