sigh.
i never mentioned it before, but ever since moving schools im stuck in the middle =[
im not as close with my riverside girls, we dont seem to have as much to talk about nowdays, and i always miss them heaps, but because we all have different schedules and strict mums, we hardly ever see each other, imagine when yr 12 starts...don't get me wrong though, im happy i moved to blackwattle, i like the school way better, even if there are a few immature boys...(tommy xD, but his small in general xP, but yeah its all great fun). But sometimes, i dont fit into my blackwattle group either, im not close enough with them, to be in they're own small groups, maybe its because they've known each other since year 7 but sigh. and also the thought of yr 12 is already stressing me out. Sometimes i feel really left out, i never get told about outings that have been planned until last minute, but i guess i can't blame them, since i don't go riverside anymore, and if they're reading this, no hard feelings and you don't have to feel guilty about it.
There are times when people come to me for advice, but sometimes despite giving the advice, i can't bring myself to following it. yeah, talking is easy then doing. its like how i've been telling quyen to get over that guy cos his not worth it and that he doesn't like you back, while i, myself can't bring myself to letting go. His not the 'perfect' boy, but i can't seen to help but like him. It comes and goes, sometimes i think im fine, but at times i start to miss him. Even though im always telling quyen to get over her problem, she told me yesterday that one day she just woke up and forgot about it, but does that really work? its been a really long time, being on and off, but the earliest was around a year ago, yeah i know what a waste of a year. I go back and read the convos we used to have, and my friends been telling me that he did use to like me, and i can tell now, but i cant help but wanting to go back in time, doing things differently, if i had did that instead of that then maybe we would have got somewhere. nowdays with yr 12 and stuff all my friends are going into the 'mature' stage, where they're ditching all the guys, saying it'll help them with their hsc. But is that really the 'mature' thing, yeah dating someone may be distracting, but there are also thoses times when you want someone to lean on, other then a friend, its different. I've seen people who are dating but are also focused on school and are still as smart as they were before -___- ... cough cough jen and jesse. I envy those with boyfriends but i don't want to be seen as someone who is desperate. And as quyen said, when you chase love it runs away, and when you don't want it, it chases you. So right now im lost, and all i can go is sigh.
Can't help but think something is missing
sry for ranting things that prob don't make sense
♥
i never mentioned it before, but ever since moving schools im stuck in the middle =[
im not as close with my riverside girls, we dont seem to have as much to talk about nowdays, and i always miss them heaps, but because we all have different schedules and strict mums, we hardly ever see each other, imagine when yr 12 starts...don't get me wrong though, im happy i moved to blackwattle, i like the school way better, even if there are a few immature boys...(tommy xD, but his small in general xP, but yeah its all great fun). But sometimes, i dont fit into my blackwattle group either, im not close enough with them, to be in they're own small groups, maybe its because they've known each other since year 7 but sigh. and also the thought of yr 12 is already stressing me out. Sometimes i feel really left out, i never get told about outings that have been planned until last minute, but i guess i can't blame them, since i don't go riverside anymore, and if they're reading this, no hard feelings and you don't have to feel guilty about it.
There are times when people come to me for advice, but sometimes despite giving the advice, i can't bring myself to following it. yeah, talking is easy then doing. its like how i've been telling quyen to get over that guy cos his not worth it and that he doesn't like you back, while i, myself can't bring myself to letting go. His not the 'perfect' boy, but i can't seen to help but like him. It comes and goes, sometimes i think im fine, but at times i start to miss him. Even though im always telling quyen to get over her problem, she told me yesterday that one day she just woke up and forgot about it, but does that really work? its been a really long time, being on and off, but the earliest was around a year ago, yeah i know what a waste of a year. I go back and read the convos we used to have, and my friends been telling me that he did use to like me, and i can tell now, but i cant help but wanting to go back in time, doing things differently, if i had did that instead of that then maybe we would have got somewhere. nowdays with yr 12 and stuff all my friends are going into the 'mature' stage, where they're ditching all the guys, saying it'll help them with their hsc. But is that really the 'mature' thing, yeah dating someone may be distracting, but there are also thoses times when you want someone to lean on, other then a friend, its different. I've seen people who are dating but are also focused on school and are still as smart as they were before -___- ... cough cough jen and jesse. I envy those with boyfriends but i don't want to be seen as someone who is desperate. And as quyen said, when you chase love it runs away, and when you don't want it, it chases you. So right now im lost, and all i can go is sigh.
Can't help but think something is missing
sry for ranting things that prob don't make sense
♥
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