rant.

hello dears, just another rant session before bed time ahaha
do people enjoy lying to other people? arghh its soo annoying, yeah it may be essential to lie sometimes or as a joke but when its about someone getting seriously injured or moving away then its serious shit. == do people find this fun? to watch people believe 'truth' and knowing they're wrong? ughhh pisses me off. and you lose so must trust between each other == but they expect you to act like everythings ok? == sighhh

and theres a difference from being honest to just plain out dickhead == yeah telling the truth is good, but when they tell it as a joke but in reality it hurts the person, then thats just down right messed out. == KFJEOI&%)(*$#%OIHJfekjg*^LKLKDJFLSK

yeshh that was my little rant =) went bbq today. it was fun seeing everyone again ahaha since it was a bbq for pretty much everyone who went to the after party for formal =) like little kids, we starting playing with ice, yes in this cold weather. maybe thats why im sick now ahaha xD

hard to believe its almost a new year aye? well im gonna be camping out in circular quay on friday from like 10am. fun. ahaha never done it before lmao. last year it was darling habour at 4 and that was painful already sighhh. mum being all protective and asian, full gave me that lecture, 'don't wear dresses...dont' wear heels so you can run if anything happens...dont take side bags otherwise someone can take it off you...' that kind of shit. paranoid parents, yeah im not saying they're always wrong, but they overthink shit sometimes ahaha xD

anyways im off to bed. dad told me to sleep before he comes home tomorrow otherwise i can't stay out on nye. ahaha thats around 12ish so i should sleep now to adjust my sleeping patterns LMAO this means i will NOT be waking up at 5pm as usual xD

goodnights swtdrms my darlings ♥♥

Christmas eve =D

ahaha hard to believe today is christmas eve...doensn't even feel like it >< maybe cos im stuck home =( and all i've done is play maplestory =( sad i kno ahahah xD
mum just came home, bought this massive turkey but my cousins arnt coming over to eat, so its only like the 5 of us o_O actually i don't even kno if bro is coming home ahaha prob out somewhere with he's gf ;D so yeh. gonna be alot of turkey tonight lmao.

wow i discovered in mexico, they don't throw their toilet paper down the toilet, cos it clogs it up lmao, yesh that would mean big or small, the toilet paper goes in the bin. ewww ahaha

hmmm sleepover at quyen's tomorrow. me and quyen are the only girls so guess who's gonna end up cooking everything? ...me == since quyen is hopeless, im gonna attempt to give her something to do, but will prob get fustrated watching her and end up doing it myself sighhh like always ==
but pity theres not much people staying over. only like the 6 of us =( well i guess christmas is with family so yeh. oh well we'll prob still end up having fun =)

soo bored right now. nothing to do =( watched like most dramas so i have none left sighh =( im gonna go find something to do =D may be back tonight :) toodles for now ♥♥

12:20am ~ im back to say MERRY CHRISTMAS MY DEARS ♥♥ love you guys so much =D aahaha xD but yeh..way to start off christmas ahaha got into a argument with mum, apprently im not allowed to go tomorrow but meh. ill be gone by the time she wakes up == and its over something stupid as well arghh makes me so pissed =(. but i shall not ruin the holiday mood so i shall end on a positive note. hope you've all been good little children so you get pressies from santa =D ahahah off to bed now. early start tomorrow.
goodnightswtdrms =D

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naww you darlings are soo cute =D thanks for the love my dears =) ahaha xD

well i have alot of things planned for the next few weeks so it'll gey my mind off stuff =)
dad gave me abit of money so time to go shopping on boxing day ;D ahahah nahh ill be good girl and not use it all lmao =D need to save abit for all the outings too ahah =D
anyways did i tell you guys? my cousin from mexico came over to study and is staying with us for awhile. funny thing is, he's full chinese but he can't speak chinese only abit of english but he's fluent in spanish ahaha xD pretty funny. even funnier when my mum tries to communicate with him =D ahaha
anyways its late, need to go buy stuff for christmas party at quyens so im off to bed =)
gdniteswtdrms darlings ♥♥

confused. + abit of rambling

Despite being in the 21st century, do you really think girls and guys can be best friends? ahahaha not trying to be old fashion here, but seriously? its always the case where one ends up liking the other one or they both like each other =\ . Or when you're best friends with someone, and their attention gets taken away by other people, makes you feel sad ahaha. hmm im gonna stop rambling ahaha all this shit sounds too mushy lmaoo =D

but yeh =( these days, something always feels strange =\ like im missing something D; but i dunno what....and i've been feeling lonely these days and i don't kno why =( right now i feel like being hugged ahahah xP
oh and remember me telling you guys, im cursed in romance? the curse is still here AHAHAH ;D

maybe its cos of that, that im feeling strange ahaha or maybe cos i have no future lmao dun even kno if ill get into my course or not =( and besides my course i want now, i don't kno what else i wanna do....ppl are saying, 'just get into uni first, then decide' but wats the point in going uni if you get into a course that isn't going to get you anywhere? =( anyways im looking at transferring but its really hard, so its pretty much like hsc all over again D; oh boy...
AHHHH i need a hug =( im off now darlings
gdnites swtdrms ♥♥

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hello darlings =) im back again ahaha
quick blog before im off to bed =) nothing much has been happening these days...except me being bad girl and going home at 2am >< woops keke
yeshhh i've been thinking about what to do in uni the past few days, at first i was considering trying for my course which was high 90s but i don't want to risk it, so i may just go for science straight up. But then my friend told me what would i do if i couldn't transfer? he said it's harder at usyd D; yeshh im in deep shit if i can't transfer. i honestly don't know what else to do =( sighhh

oh that feeling came back, you know when you just feel like something's wrong but you don't know what it is, yeh happening to me now, i have so much running through my head =( my future and current personal life sighhh =( can't say life sucks right now but its not the best either =(

realised what a depressing blog this is ahahah xD im not depressed...=D
OMFG I STILL HAVE NOT FOUND A JOB D: NO ONE WANTS ME T_________T
ahaha kind of reminds me of how these days my dad's been asking if i have a bf cos i've been staying out late lmao but i just tell him no one wants you're daugther ;D ahahah yeshh they seem surprised when i say i don't have a bf yet they oppose to one at the same time? strange strange parents ahaha anyawyz its almost 6, i should be off to bed ;D so i shall go off to bed keke

gdniteswtdrms dears ♥♥
p.s i havnt been blogging about what i've been doing these days cos i really cbf about it ahahaha but mostly its the usual, city, karaoke, pool, occasional parties + alki but thats about it =) dw im a responsible girl =D so yeh ahahah

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I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day… ♥

Been awhile....

So it's been awhile since I blogged and I have come back at a crucial time, yes the results are out.
So the results for the exams came out yesterday, I thought I did alright but I knew it wasn't going to get in into the 90s. So I stayed up with a few friends for the results, which was fun cos I had friends to accompany me.

Today the atar results came out, I had already prepared myself for 80s but deep down I hoped for a 90 oh YEHH. The final results were high 80s, at least I beat my bro Ahaha but that's not gonna stop him from giving me shit about my previous cocky attitude of 'I'll get 90'. Yes I am quite disappointed in myself sigh oh well reality is reality, cant change my results now. Even if I went back to do the exams all over again I don't think I would have done much better.

Ahaha Now back to sleep :) going out with Quyen later to eat away our depression like always :) I may be back later. Toodles my darlings. To all the HSC students out there. Don't be too sad about if results :) it's not the end of the world. :D

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wow its been ages since i've blogged ahaha
been lazy xD and busy..kinda ahahah was out almost everyday since hsc ended so i've been pretty tired, but right now im having like 3 days break ahahah xD im soo poor noww =( and no one wants me sighhh, i fully signed up for soo many jobsss =( i just hope they're not calling home phone cos the home phone isn't alawys connected and no one picks it up anywayz ><;; sighhhhh
my skin started breaking out again >< guess its from all the makeup for partying and shit sighhhhh gonna take a break from makeup ahaha going out again on wed but thats swimming so no need for makeup lmaooo xD its a indoor pool so at least i wont tan ahah bbut ima gonna hit the beaches soon =) alot of ppl are on holidays so i guess its mostly just me and quyen lmaoo we're both desperately looking for jobsss D;
so these days besides going out, i've been playing maple story! aaha yehh i knooo....lame yeh? but its addictive ;D and watching dramas which is pretty typical ahahah
life has been fun lmaoo but i feel abit empty cosss i have no more goals to work towards since school is finished ><;; i dun really want my results, i think im prob gonna get like a 85 sighhhhh thats soo depressing T_T anyways just a quick update before im off again =)
toodles darlingsss =) until next time <3

tired =(

so formal was last night ahaha it was pretty fun. the place was alright but the food was shit...as usual.
..the photos are horrible! photos really do make u look 10 pounds fatter...or maybe i am that fat just i choose not to believe it...sighhhh =[
so after formal we went to the house we booked in stanmore. at first it was alright...didn't drink much, maybe like half a bottle of cruiser and a shot, so i was fine, turned abit red but i didn't feel the alki so yeh...but then it all went downhill when the police came about noise complain, my friend who organised it, is running around the house telling everyone to shut up and stuff. Cops came twice that night, my friend was pretty much passed out from alki and stress so i ended up going around telling everyone to be quiet sighhh. AND there was vomit everywhere arghhh.
at one point i couldnt even go outside cos it smelt sooo bad, felt like throwing up myself too =[
aahh but two of my friends stayed at maccas all night lmaooo xD maccas was like 5 mins away and it was 24hrs so we went for a few 'maccas run' ahahaha
then around 4ish, we decided to sleep on the floor in the living room cos the room we were planning to sleep in, smelt like vomit =(
at least it was hot during the night so we didn't need blankets but some of the boys stayed up all night ahaha i only got about 2 hours sleeep so yehh. then 2 of my friends went back to my house to get there shit, and they ended up sleeping on my bed so i pulled a mat out and slept on the floor for like 2 hours ahaha then i slept another 10 after they left xD
but yeh formal was pretty fun, its a party so ppl are bound to get drunk lmaoo we left early so we didn't havta clean up the vomit, and as usual i ended up cooking some food for everyone ahaha at least this time i wasnt one of the ones who was 'passed' out lmaoo

=)

so i finally found a dress for formal ahaha
once i go buy a clutch and accessories tomorrow ima all set =)
got my formal dress for $159 and two other dresses together for $110 ahaha xD thats alright
since im almost over my $400 budget i havta wear the same shoes D; maybe i can borrow some off quyen ;D keke

im excited about formal lmaooo ima gonan stop eating till thurs cos my dress is a tight fitting one D; so i dun want a food baby LMAO

i dun have much more to sayyy =) just happy i was able to get 3 dresses in time ;D

oh an we're signing out tomorrow =) ahaha means we'll never go back D; but yehh i have so much to do before formal, i havta clean my room cos ppl are coming to get ready, get all my books for signout and also experiment on makeup and hair cos im doing it myself D;

so its over.

well can you believe its over?? Ahaha hasn't really sunk in for me :( been meaning to blog for awhile but never got around to it. Currently blogging on the bus to top ryde to go formal dress shopping...yes I have not got my dress and formal is next thurs...oh boy D; , mum gave me $400 as formal budget so hopefully I can find something, but I also needa get 2 more dresses for rivo formal and cruise :( ill cut down by wearing the shoes I got for my birthday and use the same clutch for all three Ahaha XD

So Hsc....i dun really care about my marks anymore sigh I gave up tryna get a 90 :@ even my parents don't think I will...oh well Ahah hopefully ill still get into uni :(

Sighh have heaps planned but realised I dun have time D; well I tried apply for jobs but they havnt called back so I guess I didn't get the job. But its only been 3 days so yeh... Hopefully I get one, otherwise ill have no money since i won't get $1000 from dad unless I get 90+ :(

Sighh why's the weather so gloomy :( its suppose to be spring! Stupid sun, come out :( I dun have much to write. I might come back later tonight and tell you guys if I've found a formal dress or not :) toodles darlings :)

:)

hi darlings, quick blog on my phone in bed before I sleep Ahah
Went uts to study today then went to watch despicable me 3D with friend . Felt bad tho cos we went to watch it thinking it was cheaper for student on mondays but cos it was public holis it didn't apply :( so I ended up dragging him to watch a $22 movie. Poor baby :( it was pretty good tho. Funny and cute Ahaha I dm paying for it but felt bad that I dragged someone.
but the villain vector reminded me of my math teacher Ahaha XD funny shit lmao.
Anyways off to state to study again tomorrow. I should really get in the habit of studying at home ehehe.
Gdniteswtdrms babies <3

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hey darls just a quick post before i go off to bed ahaha yeshh im sleeping alot later then i should be >__<;; off to state tomorrow again with crystal ♥

ahah ommggg went into cotton on the other day to have a look at the clothes on sales that were reduced to another 50%, but walked out with a pair of black shorts and 2 shirts that wernt even on sale ahaha sighhh talk about impulse buying ehehee i've seen quite a few dresses these days that are pretty =) but ill keep looking until i find one i really like ahaha. well i saw this black one at seduce(?) from the time i went burwood with quyen, but it was just black and it was $300, so mum said it wasn't worth it since it was plain. sigh i already have a formal dress in mind, but i just need to find it , chances are i probably wont cos i saw it in a korean drama buhhh its sooo pretty =(

Seduce $300 sooooo expensive =(

saw another pretty simple black one for $50 which i might get =) for the other parties im going to ahaha.
sighh so much i wanna do, but cos of hsc i can't, so many dramas that i downloaded on my comp that are soo tempting to watch, but i can't cos once i watch one, ill have to watch it all D; hmm anywayz imm off to bed now, legs are getting numb cos they're cold ahaha

gdniteswtdrms ♥ can't wait till all of this is over

p.s one reason i don't blog often cos its a hassle. i have to type it up on google chrome, and when i try to post it, it doesn't work and just gets saved as a draft, so i have to go on explorer to post it, but it stuffs up all the spacing. and then go to mozilla to see if it got posted cos my blog doesn't show up properly on explorer sighh. i also can't use certain symbols cos it says its a html error, even tho im on 'compose' and not 'edit hmtl' sighh so annoying. half an hour after trying to get it posted it, im off to bed for real now.

not long now

ahahah sooo HSC is LITERALLY around the corner LMAO x)
i've been studying hard these days ahahah kinda, more then i usually do.
been going state everyday OH YEAH! ahaha
its funny cos u just rock up at state at you see everyone there xD in school and outside school friends ahahah so its never lonely =)
and today i discovered that theres a little food court at martin place station ahah saves all the walking to townhall and shit. but maybe its cos i normally go state on the weekends so the shops arnt open ahahah
and they have maccas down there, so chances are ima gonna be fat from eating it everyday since the boys normally want maccas cos its cheap and fast sighhhh =( ahaha im not gonna fit in my formal dress, not that i've bought it yet but still =(
anywayz im off, gonna go library early tomorrow ehehe well try anywayz xD
gdniteswtdrms <3

Mai and Sheree's Party ♥

ahaha the bbq i was talking about was actually a surprise party for maito and sheree who are turning 18 tomorrow. since it was a surprise, i took precautions so i didn't tell you guys yesterday.went to samantha's house, a hectic morning, everyone rushing around trying to prepare the food before the birthday girls arrived, tables in the middle of the room lined with newspaper like true asians, plates and bowls everywhere, food being cut up and cooked, man it was hectic AHHAHHA

the girls were so suprised! aahaha didn't expect it x) so yehhh after eating and cleaning, we played mahjong while the boys played poker. then we played ace, ahah its a dare game. sooo fun x) ppl licking each other, sexy dancing on tables, kissing with gladwrap in between ahahah sooo funny x)

then when ppl started to leave, a few of us were watching Aladdin and the rest were playing mah jong again aahaha it was all fun until

the sad part came, saying goodbye. "cya on monday" had become such a common thing to say when we said goodbye but today it wasn't like that. it was "cya next time", "hope to see you soon", feels abit sad that we graduated, even today, ppl were like "doesn't feel like we graduated..." ahahah

LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER! THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES♥♥

schools out.

today was a important day in our lives. WE FUCKING GRADUATED WOOOT WOOOTT ahahahah!

sorry i havnt blogged for ages, never got around to it, but sooo much has happened these few weeks but ill only talk about recent daysss ahahah yesterday we had muck up day LMAO a unofficial one cos its banned at out school. champagne breakfast at the park opposite our school. aahhah heaps of ppl rocked up drunk. then we had a food fight, flour, tomato & BBQ sauce, eggs, cream, shaving cream (not food i kno but most ppl prob ate it by accident anywayz) ahahah it lasted half an hour before a majority of ppl got kicked out. lmao i had a friend that was drunkish and we were trying to get him to lie down but one of the teachers said he had alchol poisoning and sent him to hospital in an ambulance ahaha but funny thing was, the ambo person was just like "yehh..you just need sleep" LMAO funny shit ;D so yeh they called the cops and shit and apprently some ppl wern't allowed to graduate. our rehearsal got moved from wed to thurs cos there was no one at school since they all had to go home.

and today was the big day, after period 1 rehearsal, we all headed out to the city, eat, pool, K for 3 hours the usual LMAO then we headed to school early and took alot of pictures. the school was so pretty cos they had lines of candles everywhere =3 ahahah some girls started crying before it even started, and even two boys ahah funny shit cos one of them that did, was the last person you would suspect LMAO! so the assembly started, boring talks from principal and year advisors which made everyone bored. to make it worst my mum with was sitting in the section next to me, feel asleep ahaha and everyone around me was like "highlight of the day" aahahaha and i had to go embarrassingly "...thats my mum" ahahah ><;; so we all walk up and get our awards, then its time to leave, our yr 12 song comes on as we walk out of the hall, walking by myself i start crying T___T cried non stop for ages, and when i thought i stopped, people started crying so i started crying again T_T now they're all calling me cry baby cos i cried the most =( sighhh can't believe we graduated, now wats left is the hsc examss =) then after that its over!

so tomorrow we have a BBQ at a friends house and i need be there early to set up. so ill cya later babies! sorry if my post did not make sense, i was trying to cut the events short otherwise ill be up all night writting an essay, so it kinda jumps from place to place. LMAO

gdniteswtdrmsss =)

will miss you guys alot ♥♥

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so much shit just happened. Dont kno if wat i did was the right thing. Should i have lied?
I want to run away and hide right now... But im not a little girl anymore.

ehehe

heyy babiesss (= been awhile ahhah so yehh theres like 4 weeks left till hsc despite all the fear and stress i've been having quite alot of fun these days to make up for it eheheh

so yeh i said i would reduced my outings per week but ehehehe not happening >< buh buh buhhh im going library on sunday so i guess that'll kick start my 'studying mode' ahahaha so we had our graduation assembly on wednesday. it was pretty boring ahaha but yehhh the yr 11's were suppose to make a arc for us but they epic fail lmaooo x) bit sad to think we're graduating in 2 weeks but we're making the most of it x) the year 11s have prelims starting today till week 10 so its was quiet today ahaha spend the whole day in basketball courts, playing around and taking photos but i couldn't play properly cos my left arm was sore from swimming yesterday at friends house and they kept swinging me into the pool so i guess its sore from that ahah but we got to go in the spa and sauna! very relaxing mwahahahaha x) so thats about all i have. im off to bed soon lmao i cbf telling everthing in detail. going shopping with quyen tomorrow at burwood~~~ having seen honey for sooo lonngggg =( prob one of our last proper outings before we start studying sighhhhhh but yehh gonna go look for dresses x3

so im off to bed now. gdnites swtdrms darls <3

ohhh ahaha ill tell u something funny. the other day our whole family was at dinner and my dad was telling me how he onced shaved his head and when i came back from china, i couldn't recognise him lmaoo my mum was telling me how i kept looking at him as if i was thinking 'that sounds like daddy but its not daddy' aahaha so the moral of that story is don't shave your hair off if you want me to talk to you x) eheheheh

Greetings

ahaha hi babiesss~~~~ havnt been blogging for daysss ahahahah
well lots of things have happened this week well more like lots of fun stuff ahahaha
been going out alot these days ahaha after school and all lmaoo ><;; but we have funnnn x) this week i went pool on monday then had jap food. then on fri i went pool again and K, jigged arvo class ahaha common 3 hrs of mathhh D; BUTTT my friend told me yesterday that the teacher didn't even show up ahaha good thing we jigged then x) then had KRN BBQ for dinner OMMGGG so yummy x)

yesterday was UNSW open dayyy, but ommmgggg such a waste of timeee =( i couldn't sleep on friday nightt so i slept in on saturday >< 12 ="("><;; i walked up to the stairs, got a bag then we left. i didn't even actually go 'into' the uni sighhhhh =( but i went pool again ahahaha ><><><;;

sooo tiredddd ><>< ok i must start studying starting from next week and me and crsytal said we havta cut after school outings to 2 time a week ahaha.
gonna go shower and sleep early while everyone is still awake ><;; ahaha

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so i downloaded google chrome just to use for blogspot since mozilla didn't seem to work anymore ahaha see how much i love you guys? xD well sorry i've been meaning to post these few days but never got around to it ehehe ><;; so ill make it short cos im going to bed soon....kinda im going to bed but im watching something LMAO xD

so on friday was ben's hotel party, told my parents that i was sleeping over at a friends house that night, yesh i kno im bad girl but hey better then trying to get home drunk aye? so it started off with 3 hrs of k. which was ok, me and the boys were playing cards at the back most of the time LMAO xP ohhhhhh and a certain someone went! ahaha i was sooo happy when i saw him ;D so after K, i was suppose to go dinner, but we heard some of the boys were high at the hotel....not on alki so go figure....a hint would be leaves lmao. yeshh so we got all stressed, so me and some girls rushed back to the hotel. luckly they stopped after awhile so when ben got back with the rest the drinking began lmao. i took quite abit lmao compared to last time aahah 5 shots and 1 cruiser or something. yehh so when i drink i go red like a tomato and get sleepy. so i dropped dead on the bed for like 3 hrs lmao. apprently i was sleeping like the dead cos i slept through the point were everyone was drunk and at their loudest. so when i woke up i was better and made migoreng for the hungry children. and both of the toilet doors wouldn't lock properly so it it involved ppl walking on other ppl ahaha this would include someone walking in on me on the toilet (luckly i had my hand on the door so it was only for 2 seconds or so) and also i walked in a crystal showering, not a pretty sight...no offence to crystal x) . the rest of the night was OMGG! , sleeping on the ground with aully in one of the rooms, some boy wouldn't stop singing! ahaha not to be racist but funny thing is he's black and he started singing anime songs LMAO priceless. but being tired i went out to the living room to sleep next to charlie! and some stupid ppl took photos of us so now its all on fb =.= sighhhhhhhhh D; but u guys have no idea how fucking cold it was ahahah like freezing! everyone was hugging each other for warmth.

so then we went open day the next day. it was ok. came up with a few more courses i wanted to do. one was at uts which was event management. but it has abit of business involved so im not sure if i can do that but it sounds fun. another was bachelor of science/master of nutritionist or something but that was 97. im not even gonna think that. but my career advisors said i can go with bachelor of science first and get a credit average then transfer. thats do-able considering its only 84 so yeh. but thats about all i have to say lmao i kept the events of friday short. i would be here writting all night if i worte everything and this is also including the fact that i slept for like 3 hrs during it lmao

so yeshhh not much to say. so i shall be off to bed now (= gdniteswtdrms <3

ohhh waittt~~~ yesh i just remembered, i was suppose to go hk/china at the end of the year but i dun think i will now. mum said going shopping there is about the same as going shopping here since most of the good quality stuff in hk are pretty much same price here. plus there'll be sales here during christmas time. so i dm since quyen might be staying here too so yeh. ill prob go get a part time job. even if its only christmas casual or something, its still experience so yeh x) i wanna get a job at event cinema ahaha sounds fun x) now im off for sure (=

toodles <3

=(

im tired and want to sleep. but i stayed up to talk to someone and that someone acts like a jerk. making jokes that i dun wanna hear. not that i have anything against the subject but im still sad and grumpy. so now to put on top of sleepy and tired. im grumpy! =(
maybe its post-pms sighhh going to go sleep it off now. ill blog tomorrow about friday and sat.
gdnites swtdrms darlings

ehehe♥

hey darlings~~ i've been meaning to blog past two days but keep forgetting ahahah ><

so on friday, went and watched inception at burwood with the leichhardt boys ahaha it was pretty cool xD but we missed the first 5 minutes or something cos we were waiting for some certain late comers ahahah yeshhh xD then we went food court and the boys kept making up jokes like 'oh ill choose wat i wanna eat from whats left after stella has chosen' bitches! ahah but its great fun =).....excluding the fat jokes lmao

then some guy who was abit in the head, came and sat with us, and started talking about jesus and the devil and stuff ahah for those who go blackwattle, he was like the brother of the 'sweet jesus' guy lmaoo soo funny and one of the boys kept going 'he's the devil' pointing at some other boy LMAO

yeshhh then yesterday, i had my jap speaking, im hoping for a band 5 cos i know i wont get band 6 since i made a few mistakes. one question i completly missed was when they asked me, what my interest was, i forgot wat it meant until later, prob cos i was panicking but now that i think about it, it was pretty stupid == the examiner asked what my hobby's were so obviously they're wat im interested in right? so why would they ask wat my interests are as well == ahaha thats my reasoning, prob trying to make myself feel better ;D

so yehhh....spend the whole day in bed today ahahah with my bros laptop, lmao watched like 3 movies xD dun really wanna go to school tomorrow cos we're most likely getting our results back. scared to get my software results back cos i prob failed it like i do in all my exams D= im

also having troubles with picking my 9 choices for the uac form shit sighhh dunno wat to choose =n= im go see the career advisor tomorrow. better get it in before i miss the date ><;;

so yeh im going to go shower now and then hopefully get a early night cos i stayed up till 7:30 am last night (this morning) and got up at 2pm cos ppl came over and i was the only one who heard them knocking on the door. so i didn't get as much sleep as i wanted too lmaoo


toodles darlings, gdniteswtdrms♥

fuck yeh!

so i finally finished my trialsss x)

had jap today, im abit dissappointed over it, cos i missed out half of the reading section D= yeh thats ALOT of marks. ill be lucky if i passed. i dunno wat happened =\ no matter how much i read it over and over again i just didn't understand it. must be cos i didn't get much sleep so i couldnt concentrate. im never doing that again. sighhhhh should of slept instead of trying to cram. well i have jap speaking on sat, so ill try harder for that, but speaking is only worth about 5% =\ reading is 10% so im pretty much screweddd sighhhh i managed to do the listening 10% and writting 5% so i hope i did better there but i doubt it. gotten so lazy over jap =( never really studied before but now i dun even touch it and i don't listen in class sighhhhh hope i can make it up in hsc but my ranking probably dropped T____T

anywayz im off to bed, going to watch inception tomorrow. some people say its good, some people say its a mind fuck so yeh, ill see how it goes.

gdnitesswtdrmss <3

lalalalala

so i havnt done much since i last blogged. nothing interesting =)
but yeh did my 2U on monday, suprisingly most of it was pretty easy, but i dun wanna be over confident and epic fail at the end. the last two questions screwed ppl over. me included, skipped like 7marks or so already =( theres my 90+ gone, lets hope i can squeeze into high 80s sighhhhhhhhh 3u tomorrow or today ahah. tried studying. failed. but had 3hrs tutor today so i studied during that time ahaha

jap on thurs, and speaking on sat then im fking freee~~~ woooooooooooo~~~~~~~
but yeh then like after a week or so ill be grounded or something cos my marks will come back ahahah ><;; ill see how it goes.

ahaha omg i went driving yesterday right? and i was busy talking to mum, forgot to look and turned. almost hit a car that was going straight, like it literally passed my car by like 10cms a second before i pulled out ahah scary shit. had to stop at the side and calm down before i started driving again...embrassing yehhh ahaha lets hope SOME LOSERS dun read this and tease me about it. i've had enough of the 'very 90 degrees' thing LMAO

yeshhh that is all. maybe ill go sleep now, wake up earlier to study. exams in arvo ahaha so yehhhh x) too tired to think nowww sighhh
so good nights darlingsss <3<3<3
toodles

p.s one thing i noticed these dayssss is that IM 100 FKING PERCENT OVER THAT GUY ahahah proud? yehhh =) so am i ahahahaha about time too lmaooo
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missing you

hello =)

so i decided to drop by while i waited for my bed to head up to go to sleep ahaha
why im sleeping so early on a friday? going library with baby tomorrow ahaha plus i feel guilty that i stayed up till 6am last night watching dramas eheheh ><;;
so i did phys on thurs, wasn't that hard =\ but i already know i made heaps of silly mistakes sighhhhh, maybe im over confident....cos everyone said it was hard ><;; i dunnooooo~~ ill see when the results come out. i would be content with a 80+ but if it was high 70's i guess thats ok. ill study more for hsc so i can get a 85+ ahahah
its kinda my fault tho, didn't really study for phys >< besides last minute reading of notess at like 12am sighhhh guess i was abit tired after having to study for paper 2 and sdd lmaoo then again thats no excuse cos i was on youtube till late on weds before i actually got my phys stuff out lmao.

so i got to recover slightly last night, dispite sleeping at 6 i still got like 11 hrs ahaahaha ><;; BUT OMGGG i had like the best dream lmaooo im gonna sound like a total fan girl right now but kekek Onew from shinee was in my dream kyahhhhhhh~~~ xD ahaha yeshhhh that was a good dream. you kno how when u wake up from a good dream and u try to go back to sleep to continue ur dream. yeh i was trying to do that LMAOOO ><;; but when i went back to sleep i had another dream about dondon ><;; dunno if thats a good thing or nott sighhhhhhhh

sighhh wtf is with meeeee D= ahahah as usual im cursed in love LMAO i either like the wrong ppl or i like celebs that ill never meet LMAOO ahahahah *fan girl alert* ehehe ><

so i have math 2U/3U and Jap left then im free for like a month. abit dissapointed in myself, didn't prepare for my exams as much as i wanted to sighhhhh im in the habit, where i can't do anything unless its last minute, guess i work better under pressure >< anywayz darlings im off to bed so i actually wake up in time to go library tomorrow eheheh
goodnights~~~ lets hope i have a good dream today tooo xD
toodles darlings

sighh

Did paper 2 and Software todayy =) 5 more to go ahahah
guess im done with english until hsc ehehe

Things i reccently discorvered:
- frankenstein is a bitch
- should have got a private tutor for english so i wouldnt have suffered so much =(
- im cursed when it comes to relationships or anything to do with that (AHAHA its true)
- really wants to go shopping
- sick of exams already and its only the second day...oh boyy....
- realised how much she misses pool =( havnt been for 3 weeks D=
- wants more makeup
- has not eatten any junk food these days ( =D ) but i havnt been eating healthy either.....wait wat have i been eating? Dx


yehh ahah that was kinda a mini rant but not really if u get wat i mean.
so i shall go back to phys which is tomorrow...or should i say START studying phys xD eheheh
then after phys sleep like the dead then study for math when i regenerate ahahah.

toodles babes <3

=)

one down 7 to go ahahah including my HSC speaking exam x)

english paper 1 wasn't as bad as i thought but i dun think i aced it ahahah then again when will i ever ace english sighhhhhhhhh so i dun have exams tomorrow gonna try study as much as i can cos on wed i have paper 2 AND software =( which im screwed for sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

well nothing more to say, just cannot wait till after TRIALS MWAHAHAHAHAH x)
ben's party is wat im looking forward too xD eheheh

DS#@$%$@#GDG46

yeshhh once again i am raging at english. so today i attempted to study but truthfully i didn't do anything sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
=( and not being on msn feels werid ahah so yehh most of the time im appear offline ahaha not really breaking the promise if no one knows im on ehehehe just feels werid not to be signed in on msn ><;; guess im too addicted to the computer sighhhhhhhhhh =( yehh i should get back to english =( just realised how screwed i am for sdd as well. just tried to do a question and i can't do it sighhh then i tried asking the brother. but he was dota-ing so go figure == boys + dota = @$#@#%#@%@# =(
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lala misses dondon

eheheh

eehehehehehehehehehehe =) happy mood lmaoo
didn't do much today either. went to the new chatime in chinatown after school ahaha not as good as the other ones. shit service and the drinks tasted different. but being cheap asians, we're going to keep going there until the 'buy one get one free' promotion is over LMAO ahaha
then i had tutor. the usual =)
came home, snuck on msn ahahaha thank god for the ctrl-space function that hides msn lmaooo xD

anywayz im off to bed, fingers too frozen to type anymore =( just thought ill drop by =)

gdnites swtdrms darlings
toodles <3

ehehe =)

hello darlings =)

i have survived the first day without msn ahahahah 17 days to gooo woot xD

so today wasn't that exciting of a day ahaha but i saw and talked to the people i wanted too ;) nudge nudge aahha nahhhhh xD so right now im doing my tutor hw or should i say...taking it out ahahaha xP off to bed at 10:30 sighhhhh my dad agreed to the sleepover thing but i need to be off the computer by 10:30 D= guess i should get into the habit ahaha 2 weeks of this might change my habits ehehehe

ahaha and also me and crystal had a D&M at hungry jackss lmaooo lets hope nobody we knew overheard us ehehehe ahh funny moments =)

yeshhh thats all i have for today ahaha not that exciting ayeee? =)

so i should be off =) goodnights swtdrms darlings ♥♥

Hello darlings =)

sorry darlings for neglecting you guys ahhha nahh my blogspot is acting up on my mozilla, can't get on so im using explorer.

9:24am - So yesterday my mum yelled at me for always sleeping late and waking up late. And today, i just so had to wake up at 9. Being in big shit if she found out, i ninja it to the bathroom, and have the quickest shower ever ><><><

2:50pm - in the bus to library to borrow books for english. Before stopping at home to get tutor stuff for tutor at 4:30. Just had pepper lunch and 85 degrees cake with crystal and aully ehehehe man are we fatties or wat? ;) ehehe love when ppl pig out with me cos it makes me feel better ;P so tiredddd :( think im going at fall asleep during 3hr of mathhs sighhhhh :(

9:00pm – ehehe in a happy mood (= was talking to a certain loser on msn Ahah funny boy. so been preparing for english…well kinda ahahaha got another related text today for belonging, almost finished half the book lmao then I havta go back and make notes >< so yehhh in exchange to staying out for one night for a party of trials I havta stay off msn till the end of trials lmao I guess it’s a good benefit to me =D win win situation? Well my mum agreed, needa convince my daddy now ahaha bad thing about being a daddy’s girl, they’re so much more protective! Sighhh yehh I should be off nowww (= going to shower and hopefully get into bed early to finish my book =)

So darlings toodlesss <3<3

hello to you too =)

ahaha sooo....well.......you see.........i slept in and didn't go to school xP

ahahah well i only had two periods, jap and eng, but apprently my friend said yesterday, our eng teacher wasn't coming today so i would have left after jap anywayz

ehehehehehe

but yehhh i slept in ahahah well i woke up at 8:15 and was like fuck it and went back to sleep lmao. then i kept sleeping till 1pm, got up, changed out of my pjs, ninja-ed it into the

bathroom without waking up my parents and made it look like i went to school, came home, took a nap and woke up ahahah
am i good or what? ;D

well i feel kinda baddd....but it was only jap ahahah our new teacher is good but sometimes shes slow. we take a whole lesson to explain one assesment and its like =\ can we go some actual work? ahahah

yehhh eating cherry tomatos and drinking tea~~~ ahhhh the life~~ ahahaha going to watch a drama before i get down to hard core studying ;P

i may be back kiddies ahaha but for now toodlesss <3

10:28pm - hello darlings im back =) ahah so i didn't do anything today lmaooo hardcore studying can wait till tomorrow =)

so ill continue my story from last time.
lala wants to talk to dondon but doesn't know how to start the conversation. lala told herself before that she would not get too deep before she knew it was safe to. But doesn't look like lala stuck to her words...
ahaha so any ideas to what lala can do? ;D

right now im on omgpop ahahah so addictive mannn ;D been playing pool and i lost so much money today =( besides that, the only other thing i've done today is talk to babe ahaha who managed to stay in bed the whole day == lazy bum! oh i also did some online shopping ehehe dragged my bro in as well cos im using his paypal so he ended up buying stuff as well lmao lets hope he forgets that i owe him money ehehehehehehe yehh i have nothing else interesting to report ahaha ><;;
think thats all for tonight. =)

gdnites darlings ahaha no im not going to sleep yet ;P

=)

ahah heyy darlingsss i was suppose to blog earlier but i came home around 5 and was in my bro's room playing build-a-lot on his iphone, before i knew it, it was 12 AHAHAh then his friend randomly came over so we were just watching racing movies ;D too bad i have schooll tomorrow =(

anywayz so umat was today, the questions were so different then the ones i was prepared for, there were so many more questions and i didn't finish the last 10 or so on section 1 and 3, so i had to guess. section 2, the one i was least confident about, seemed easier and i finished right on time so thats good i guess. then we went to buy coffee. SHITTEST LATTE EVER! no milk OR coffee taste, just tasted like bitter water. then i got motion sickness on the train and felt like throwing up the rest of the day =( maybe cos i drank it on a empty stomach too D= so yeh i rushed back to school for jap trials but i forgot to bring an umbrella so i was soaking wet by the time i got to school T____T so jap was ok, there were a few questions i couldnt answer or got wrong so ill prob be happy with a 10/15 =\ its only 5% i guess.

so yeh nothing much happened after that ahahah for once i didn't spend time on my comp and instead was in my bros room playing his iphone eheheh ><;; dun think im sleeping tonight either D=

so yeh i should be off now =) and errr go to sleep.....ehehehehehe

toodles darlings <3

ehehe

this is the influence of crystal and jennn mummy
ahaha wanna hear my story? ;D

lala likes dondon but fefe thinks, dondon likes nana AHAHAH only crystal and jen will get that ;P dunno why but reminds me of teletubbies xP
keke yehh we were having quite abit of fun jking around in city today ahah then a bus full of hot white private school boys drove past us and they were... ;D ahaha crystal went red as usual xP


anywayz i should be off to tutor =) might not come back cos i needa sleep early today since i havta wake up at 6 tomorrow (p.s anytime before 7am does not exist in stella's time frame), which i doubt ill wake up, yehh its for umat test D= then i havta rush back to school and do jap trials
so after tutor ima gonna havta shower + dinner + squeeze in a bit of last minute studyingg then go sleep early. so no time for my baby computer D=

gd bye darlingss until tomorrowww~~ when i report my failures ahaha <3

9:24pm hello darlings i am back ahahaha just finished dinner and is not currently enjoying my chattime hawaii fruit tea that i saved eheheheh should be studying, well i kinda amm, talking to eric in jap so thats pretty good xP
so yeh i should be going now darlingsss~~ <3

toodles again

ehehe

ahah today was an alright dayy =)
got our jerserysss xD ahah they're alright, but since they're baseball jacketss, we look american ahahaha my friend was like we should learn the Oh dance by snsd and record a video for it lmao ahaha
yehhh didn't go muchh, english we had a assembly first period so we only had half a period then we had sdd ahaha some loser who was sitting next to me wouldnt do his work xD and just started drawing pictures ehehehehe
then i had a free, did abit of mathsss =)
and then math after lunch and since we finished the course, we're just doing past papers, got a whole booklet with past catholic papers which is good helppp~~`
then we had jap arvo, did nothing but dicuss the excursion half of us went to, and speaking techniques sighh so nervousss, umat on wed and then jap trials =(

got our trial timetables today =\ they're ok
9.08 - 9am Advance English Paper 1 (also daddy bennn's birthday <3 d=" fuck" d=" gonna"><;;

ahah thats all i have for now, gonna study abit of jap then off to bed for meee =)

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do you see me...

sighhhh

6:27pm - hello darlingsss~~ ahaha woke up at 5pm today ><;; ehehehehehe i was tireddd~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lmaoo now its raining really hard =( hope it stops raining tomorrowwww =( i should start studying considering my umat and jap speaking is next weddd but yehhh maybe i start math firstt, can't exactly study for umat ehehehe thats all for nowww, i might come back later =) p.s Tommy is a loserrr =) 11:48pm - came back to chat just before im off to bed =) ahaha so i didn't go much in the past..wat?...5 hrs ahaha watched a movie and did some math....well more like 2 questions of mathh ahaha ima gonna die in 3hr examss =( since i have a short attention spam =( anywayz trying to sleep early nowdays so i guess befoe 12 is still pretty good rightt? x) packing my bagss now =)

so gdnitesswtdrmss darlings♥♥

it wasn't me~~~ ;D

p.s im hungry D= ahaha like alwayss

=\

sighh didn't do much todayy. went to some private school in north sydney for a jap excursion then drove my mum to aldi.

been having breakdowns thinking about hsc these dayss =( and just a convo with my friend and bursted out crying when we started talking about our parentss =( soo saddd T______T


could really use a cup of tea right now. and a hug.

p.s darlingsss treasure what you haveee and never take for granted..

(=

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo thereeeeee =)

ahaha did english todayyy =) somehow i ended up writting more then i intended to and in less time, weridddd o_O

yeh didn't do much, had tutor, but i was soo pissed =( didn't have money on me today so i couldnt go 7/11 =( by the time i got home to get my tutor stuff and money everything was sold out alreadyyy at stratty =( sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahaha so yehhh i had tutor, nothing special ahaha

but i think my wifey's cheating on me ahahaha she never answers my calls nowdays and when she does shes sleeping cos shes tired....wonder whos keeping her up all nighttt cos it aint me ;D lmaooo

ahaha ill share a awkard and embrassing moment with you guys. ahaha you guys may not know, but the best feature i like on someone is their eyes ><;; ahaha so yehh when i encounter someone with pretty eyes, i can't help but stare, but that looks awkward cos im staring right into them ahahahah and that moment when u quickly look away cos they notice and stare backk ahahah soo embrassing lmaoooo ><;;

ehehe so thats all i have for today babies =)
im off to bed soon ahaha well maybe..........my bro coming back from snow tonight and i wanna go pick him up but his not back till like 1am or something =(
so for now, gdniteswtdrmsss darlingsss <3<3
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you're smile is contagious

(=

so turns out i get an extra day to prepare for english ahaha everyone thought it was today (wed) but turns out its tomorrow (thurs) lmaoo
just went driving ehehe again the cityyyy
man im soo addicted but like i would have failed instantly if i was going for my Ps cos i ran a kerb ahahaha yehhh mybadddd
but luckly there was no cars around ahaha. my mum said im a reckless driver and that she wouldnt let me drive alone even if i got my Ps....yeh i guess, ahaha considering i was kindaaaa drink driving when i was driving back from quyen's house ><;; but srs! i was sober! ahaha just might have still been in my system, luckly cops didn't pull me over lmaooo

so yeh going to shower and memories abit more english and im set to go ahahahahah

OMMGG i realised i have UMAT and jap speaking trials next week =(

D=

yet again thought she would annouce that she is FUCKED FOR ENGLISH D=
so yeh shes pulling an all nighter tonight to get it finish since she just remebered she has tutor tomorrow and wont be home till late. OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG

english can go die in a hole bitch.

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somewhere between our long talks and making fun of each other, i fell for you

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yessssss im raging ahahaha is sooooo screwwweeeeddddddddddddd for english sighhhh

the speeches are soooooo long annnddd the essay question is @$!#$#@$ sighhh

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fuck hsc.

pointless

sighh didn't do muh today =(

Babe came over and we were suppose to do something more productive, but it was too cold so we just turned on my electric blanket and stayed in bed ahahah
but she was soo mean, stole my teddy, rolled herself up in the blanket so i was left with none AND kicked me in the ass so i rolled off the bed ==

yehh then a friend asked us out at like 6pm to go out for dinner in burwood. ahah we felt kinda bad cos we only stayed there for like half an hour since babe had to go home =( and she made me catch the train with her to stratty which i ended up missing my own train T___T so yehhh

ahaha we were talking about the bet we made before with formal and pool lmao
shes really sure that at least one person will ask me out to formal so she made it loser shouts 2hrs pool instead of one lmaooo well she better start saving ;D cos im pretty sure ill win anywayz =)

toodles darlings =)

=)

ahaha so yesterday we all went to quyen's house. but it was a pity i couldnt sleep over =( pretty stupid cos my rentz picked me up at 3:3am == but at least i got to drive home ahaha

so yeh, people who went were annabelle, sakura and moira. at the start of the day, we promised quyen's little sister we would go bowling so we went to the game centre again to play. running around like little kids, ahahah and then SOME girls decided to be imature, started screwing up each others turns, quyen was holding sakura down while moira was trying to roll the ball down the gutter for sakura's turn sighhhhh. pretty funny tho. and then some bitch lady on the lane next to us wouldn't let us share that slide thingo for the ball, she was like well my kids have been using it for 2hrs and if i let u use it as well then when my kid is waiting for a turn wat am i suppose to tell her? and we were like fucking bitch but of course not to her lmao since her kids were around. So i walked like 7 lanes before i found a slide that wasn't being used, but the ppl on the other side of us decide to steal it == so i had to go get another one, looking like a idiot walking down the room holding a slide thing. after that me and quyen went to buy some alcohol but the stupid FUCKING BITCH wouldnt let us cos she wanted my id too == so we had to trek it all the way to cabra again to get it, sighhhh

so we got this sparkling wine and 8 bottles of some other stuff that i can't remember the name. we drank the wine first, mixed with pespi and tonic water ahaha then i turned red lmaoo, so we went to play murder in the dark, SOOO funny ahahahaha everyone trying to push everyone, pushing the couch out and running around it as we were getting chased xD so after that we watched a movie to get quyen's sister to sleep, we watched A team, the movie i wanted to watch but i was tipsy so i fell asleep =(

after that we went to the living room and started playing blackjack and cheat to see who drinks ahahaha it was sooo fun. but i didn't drink cos my rentz were gonna pick me up plus i was gonna drive so yeh. it was funny watching everyone get drunk tho lmaoo, quyen and moira had to plya scissors, paper, rock and they kept putting out rock for like 8 rounds == even tho half way we changed it to 'rock, paper, scissors' to see if it worked lmaoo. so my penalty for losing was getting flicked on the forehead, ahaha and quyen was like it really hurts and was gonan try it on sakura, so she said 'close your eyes, you can feel me coming' and we all started cracking up and quyen's like '....huh??' then started laughing like 10 secs after lmao

yeh thats about it, quyens over now to finish the softtoy we started making ahaha
toodles

><;;

so i didn't do much today ahaha besides tutor and all lmaoo
then went over to aunts house cos it was my cousins birthday
mum didn't wanna cook dinner and they were having a BBQ so its all good LMAOO

then i drove my older cousin back to city OMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGG
i nearly shat myself =( so many god damn cars on anzac bridge
changing lines and shit =( nearly died
FUCKING JAYWALKERS! man they come out of no where == and i almost hit a hummer LMAOOO looks like i had a EXCITING driving session aye? x)
ahaha

yehhh i should do hw =)

so thats it for today
gdniteswtdrms darlings =) <3

=)

so today i spend the day baby sitting lmaoo
met with quyen to go cabra with her cos she had to look after her sister
so we both took her out (= went to a game centre lmaoo
quyen spend $100 on a card to get another $100 free D= shes so rich mannnn
yeh so her little sister was whining about going bowling but we had no money so we were trying to bribe her with other games ahahah she wanted prizes but we didn't have enough tickets ><;;
that was until we got lucky AHAHAH played this roulette thing and won the jackpot LMAO 1000tickets ehehehehehehe

yeh so we didn't do much after that, went her house and watched prince of persia ahaha her little sis feel asleep on us so we couldn't move ><;;


oh yeh yesterday, quyen came my house too xD cos she wanted to make this softtoy thing but didn't have a sewing machine so she came over ahaha
we went lincraft before to buy stuffing OMG they were so big lmao we were carrying 3 bags of stuffing like twice our width ahah the best moment was when quyen got tired waiting for the bus so she decided to sit on one of the bag of stuffing ahaha when she did, the air was coming out and it sounded like she was farting ahaha as she was deflating to the ground =D soo funny everyone gave her werid looks lmaooo yeh but we didn't finish making the toy so shes coming back on saturday to finish ahaha man im seeing her alot
gonna go over to her house again on friday sighhh have no energy to argue with my dad == so ima just gonna get him to pick me up at like 3am or something LMAO xD

i should be off to bed =) goodnights darlings
toodles <3

fking pissed

OMGGG im so fking pissed off at my dad ==
im not allowed to sleep over at quyen's house who lives in fairfield.
while my bro just goes 'im going snow mountains on monday' and they're like 'alright'
what the fuck!? thats so unfair so wat if he has a penis == his just as likely to get rolled pshhh
besides its not like its the first time i've slept over at her house ==
he doesn't give me a good reason while my bro can go to some far place 8hrs away from sydney. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so pissed off right now == and its not about age either, cos my bro could go anywhere when he was my age == he sleepover and ppls house all the way and bankstown which is prob just as bad or worst then fairfield and may i say its BOYS AND GIRLSS fuckkk!
they think im gonna get raped or something == when we're not gonna even walk around in fairfield at quyen's house == we're only staying in her house! RWAR im raging right now
and chucking a tantrum == not coming out of my room == sighhhh but im hungry =( should of ate moreeeee =(

bored

so today was another boring dayy sighhhhhh =( did nothing
babe was suppose to come over to use my sewing machine
but babe being babe, didn't wake up in time LMAO as i had suspected
luckly i called her before getting out of bed to get ready. had to call her twice before she picked up cos she slept in ahahaha so typical and i thought i was bad

so today all i've been doing is watching dramas and pigging out in food ahaha
been so boreddddddd~~~~~ im such a loner, no one talks to me no more =( ahaha
i should start hw ahah i tell myself everyday i would start it tomorrow, but when i start watching a drama i cbf AHAHA should stop now aye? ;)

=)

so today was a fun day =)
went to watch karate kid in the morning, it was ok, and i would have wanted to spend more time with the other ppls, but i had to run off to tutor right after =(

then went back to city with crystal and two other friends ahahah went ajisen for dinner. ramennn♥♥ ehehe

afterwards crsytal yet again wanted to drink lmao so she went and got midori and this really pretty blue stuff that was heaps cheappp, and yeh so we were just standing outside dixon house drinking it lmao waiting to play pool ahahah yeh it was pretty funny, cos before quyen told me to do the bartender test with her after we finish hsc, and today i used my future bar tending skills LMAOOO the blue drink needed a bottle opener or something to open lmao so we thought we could drink it, but me being pro (ahaha jksss) i used a ledge to get the cap off, ahaha oh yehhhhh~~~ lmaooo

but i didn't drink much ahaha last time i drank so much i couldnt go home cos i was all red lmaoo crystal was pretty tipsy and the guys kept blaming the alki for doing shit in pool LMAOO

yeh so that was my dayy~ wooooo a weekends break before tutor everyday AGAIN. expect this time at 9:30 ( D= ) to 12:30 sighhh should start some school work in the holis =)

OMGGGGG

AHAHAH OMMGGGG JUST FOUND OUT SOMETHING COOOLLLLL
so yeh apprently RUAN is written as Nguyen in vietnamese which so happens to be the last name of my honey/ BFF ahahaha cool right?
i think its cool ;D (btw for those who dunno, my last name is ruan =) )

my mouth tastes bitter...is the after taste of orange juice suppose to be bitter? if not then i drank off orange juice LMAO think i might get sick now ahahaha

being a bitch

just got home from tutor and sushi train ehehehehehe with aully and jesse ahaha we were such fatties, after sushi train we walked into the cafe next to it to eat ice cream lmaoo
green tea + oreo cookies ice cream = ♥ ♥ ♥ + =)

but yeh so some people have been pissing me off quite abit these days sighhhhh

What pisses me off.
- people who diss you about something then goes and does it themselves
- people who contradict themselves
- people who tell you half of something then tell don't tell you the rest.
- people who are fake

thats all i can think of right now ahaha
but then again these days, i've been in a grumpy mood, must be the lack of sleep, freetime and too much tutor + hw D=

all these grumpiness and stress must be making me eat lot ahaha been spending like almost $20-$30 on food a week ><;; ehehe and its not even hsc yet! ima gonna be one fatty during that time ;D so yeh guess i have to go off and do my hw sighhhh needa sleep early tonight cos im going out to eat yet again tomorrow with aully ahahaha love that girl ♥ she's also the one who makes me pig out ;D misunderstandings causes more misundestandings. and not accepting someone's apology, who was willing to admit to wat they did wrong isn't helping either.psh childish you say? you're the one being immature about all this i said my sorry so i think im missing yours.
wants to fucking rage too

dizy

so today i found out i was the sleepy drunk lmaooo
and no i wasn't drunk just tipsy but i kept yawning lol
aahahha maybe drinking it all in one go on a empty stomach was a bad idea LMAO
i blame crystal hmph she made me drink it all in one go ><;;

but yeh i also discovered i play pool better when im tispy LMAOOO btw this post might not make sense, still not really thinking straight LMAO

yeh i have tutor hw due tomorrow too ahahah can;'t think right now so think i might go to sleep early and do it tomorrow morning, which i doubt ill wake up xP

so yeh toodles darlings
gdniteswtdrms <3

notitle

im bored =( someone talk to me ><;; my msn is so inactive these days cos im too much of a loner that no one talks to me LMAOO T_____________T i shall cry in my corner ahahah

plus these days have been shit for me sighhhh cheer me up? <3

anywayz i should be off to bed =) toodles darlings
gdnitesss

p.s we all kno im not off to bed LMAO everytime i say 'im off to bed' its normally like 1 hr later ;D but shhhhh

lalalala

yet again i hear more rumors about me sighhhhhhhhhhh i kinda kno where it starts and it makes me sad cos i hope that my assumptions are wrong but yehhh....

sighh sometimes i wish i was a boy, they have a easy life LMAO. then can have a punch on to solve something and be friends the next day again. PLUS they dun bring it back up. then again girls arnt girls if they dun gossip. cos thats just how we all, just some more then others LMAO

cannot wait till i finish high school sighhhhhh

OMGMGGGGMGMG atm im soooo hungry =( but i can't eat cos ill get fat, and i've brushed my teeth already =( buhhh there's so many snacks in the cupboard =( the relatives who stayed over bought us heaps as a thank you gift =( and i wont be home tomorrow cos of tutor, so my bro and his friend whos staying over will eat it all~~~ T________________________________T

ahaha dun wanna go tutor =( but i must endure lmao think this is my last holis of tutor everyday ;D .....shit i still have one more tutor everyday during the holis before hsc =( just asked my bro T___T

anywayz think i should be off to bed ahahahah buhhh its cold, i need something warm to hug =(

sighhhhhhh ill stick to my teddy and electric blanket LMAOO
toodles darlings
gdniteswtdrms =)

p.s realised i've been blogging often nowdays =)

SAVE ME

sighh im all sore from camping on the floor in my bro's room D=
and to make it worst, his room smells like something died in there.

and to make it worst, he closed off everything cos the heater is on, and he farts every 10 minutes T__________T im about to die sighhhh

luckily i get to move back to my room tomorrow eheheheh currently i feel like eating something but then ill get fat lmao. speaking of food the cheesecake i made turned out all right, but i was soo stupid, i put more of one ingredient and forgot to increase the amount of other ingredients to keep it proportional sighhhhh but yehh its edible =)

anywayz ima going to shower now. and i need to go to the toilet real bad LMAO been holding it in cos i couldnt be bothered moving from my temporarily bed on the ground plus im also too sore to move, ok i guess that was too much info. ahahhah

toodles <3

=)

so we can cross toy story off my list since i went to watch it today with honey and sakura. ahahah it was pretty funny for those who watched it...we screamed out heads off when the monkey toy turned around as they were trying to capture it. and screamed again when the baby turned its head =( one bad thing about watching toy story is that its scary...i have so many toys in my room =( but then again i loveeeeee them every much so they wont attack me =D

so yeh we didn't do much. went to watch toy story, then went pool. ahahah damn i sucked today. i kept getting the white ball in every turn =( and after pool met up with crystal and we didn't do much lmao bummed around waiting for a certain loser to come and just sat in easyway....

sighhhh we have some relative i've never met come over from china, so i had to give them my room and camp on the floor in my bros room. guess whos freezing their ass off tonight?

AHAHAH oh yeh my bro is so whipped, he downloaded New Moon for his gf cos she asked LMAOOO and he was just watching bits of it and kept asking what was happening ehehehe

All Cheered Up

ehehehe went driving again~~ cheered me up from yesterday =)

went with mum this time to go woolies. it was scarier with her because she was shitting herself and making me panic LMAO since we went really late, the car park was empty so i was just going around practicing parking....epic fail xD
ahaha yeh then we went around roundabouts again lmao and practiced U-turning. =) soooo funnn~~~~
ahahaha daddy's birthday tomorrow so im off to make another cheesecake =)
toodles

...

so wat am i suppose to do now? rumors about me are spreading, and im told half the story but not the other half. yeh im not the nicest girl out there, but it stilll makes me sad to hear these rumors being made up. i can't solve it if i don't kno who started it. and yeh i've changed since i moved schools so what?, when you are with a new group, isn't it natural that you try to fit in? its hard when you dun quite fit in with your new group, because they've been with each other for years, and you don't fit in with your old group cos you dun see them anymore.

so one of the rumors going around is that im telling people not to go to a certain friend's party because im not going. i don't kno how these rumors started, and i don't recall saying that, maybe what i said was interpret in a wrong way, but all i said was that it was really expensive and right now i don't have the money to pay for something so expensive. If i actually forked up the money for this party, i would rather spend it on something that i've been waiting to buy. I have tutor that day anywayz so its not like i could go, but i was planning to drop by at the beginning so that i could give her present to her, but i can't now, cos im apparently telling not to go to the party.

someone told me that i shouldnt worry about it, but its easier said then done.
and someone told me to stay out of trouble. how am i suppose to stay out of fucking trouble if i don't even kno what trouble im in.

publising this blog could cause more rumors and trouble for me because people would probably think im looking for attention, but its hard to hold in and i can't tell anyone in any of my two groups cos it'll prob spread around and cause more rumors. then again i don't kno who reads this blog. so either way more rumors are going to start. i cannot fucking wait till i finish HSC. what a waste of tears.

Suck Up

so i was being a goody goody, trying to suck up to my mum by doing chores so i could go somewhere during the holidays, and i discovered another reason why i hate winter....when you're trying to fold clothes and you can't decide whether the clothes are still wet or just cold, and you're fingers get frozen as you're molesting the clothes to decide which one it is. sighhhhhh

Hello there =)

helloooooo~~~ =)

sighhh i reccently changed my mobile number cos for some unknown reason my number isn't registered or something under the phone companies and FUCK ITS A PAIN IN THE ASS! had to send everyone a message to tell them i changed, and for some god damn reason it sent the message twice to everyone so i prob wasted like $20 right there == and i havta change my bank and all that shit RWAR! RAGGGEEEE! stupid optus, you started this!

so yehhhh just finished making cookie&cream cheesecakes =) kekeke sooo yummmyyyyyy~~~~~ and right now, am waiting for my bed to heat up from the electric blanket so i can sleep ;D wanna join me? its cold =( need some body warmth ehehe

Stella's Wishes and Desires
♥ New Shoes (actually MORE SHOES)
♥ Watch Toy Story 3, A-Team and Shrek
♥ New Clothes....stock up for winter =D
♥ More Makeup~~~
♥ finds her dream formal dress
ahah as you can see most of it requires money so my biggest wish is MORE MONEYYY~! ;D
ooooo and one last one
♥ HSC TO BE OVER! =)

anywayz think my bed's warmed up now, so im off to bed. see you there darlings ;D

driving~

kekekekeke i went driving for the first time today~ sooo funnn~~~
with my bro screaming 'YOUR SPEEDING' in the back xD ....i was not speeding btw hmph
ahahaha and my dad scared shitless next to me, pretending not to be.
pretty good for a first timer ;D expect my dad tried to get me to do a 90degrees turn and i went onto the kerb trying AHAHA so we went to a deserted place near my house and went around the roundabouts till i got used to it =)

kekeke going again next sundayyy~~` =D

still up

so im still up doing my SDD why?
some loser is distracting me on msn ahahah i joke i joke.
i cbf right now =D

the 'if only' feeling

sighhh sooo i said he had a gf right? and im pretty much over the fact
but my heart died for 10 second when i saw his dp of him and his gf kissing =\ nooo im not stalking him. i just so happened to see it in the 'Whats New' box thing on messenger. and if his reads this then thats even more akward but hey what are the chances?.

in that 10 seconds many things came by in my mind. 'if only that was me?' or 'if only hadn't been so dumb and oblivious' or the one that hurts the most 'if only i had the courage to tell him how much i loved him' =(

then theres 'what ifs'...'What if we were dating? What would had happened? Maybe we don't get along and it would end up in heart break anyways'.......'What if it was all one sided all along....'

right so that 10 second is now over. and im kinda back to normal and back to stressing about my software assignment so i think i'll go do that now =)

sex change?

ok so i got my banana milk today ♥♥ but i couldn't help but buy SPICY chicken and rice cake from the krn store =( so now i sound like a man. woopeedoo == maybe i should have gone with something that wasn't spicy , cos it just made my throat worst sighhh

getting better

slept another 16hrs. didn't get up till like 6pm on sat and went back to sleep at 8pm till 12pm on sunday =( sighhhh and im sooo hungry D= havnt eaten solid food. all i've been eaten is congee and drinking water =( i crave banana milk right now =(

still sick

ok so i slept like 16hrs. i still feel like shit. and cos i feel like shit i have no motivation what so ever to start my SDD assignment or study for my english assessment on monday =(
also my whole body is aching which makes me feel old sighhhh =(

T_______T

=( sick and dying...

depressed

ok so i just stepped on the scale after dinner. and OMMMMMMMGGG!
im 6Xkgs and my bro is also 6Xkgs, thats not a good sign, considering he lost alot of weight. soon he'll be as heavy as me OMMMMGGGGGG but i think its just his muscles turning into fat from lack of exercise and too much DOTA xD
but srsly i needa lose weight....sighhhhhh

fine ill set a goal!
Lose 5-10kg by the end of 2011 ahaha i guess thats do-able if i tried x) but yeh i would be happy if i got there kekeke

sighh so embarassing. ima soo fking heavy and fat LMAO

wtf

ok so what the fuck am i suppose to do now?

that certain friend i mentioned before just goes to 'him' and tells him i like him == wtf and yeh the one with the gf already. fucking hell == im over it! he's just the first person i really liked alot sighhh == fuck!
now i look like someone who can't let the past go. or that im playing with him or some shit. i still really hope deep down, that this friend was joking when he told me he talked to him == plus i dun think i can look at him again cos it'll be awkard and weird == fuck!
sighhh!! more problems adding to the ones im already facing ==

yeh ahahaha its been ages since i raged on my blog lmaoooo =)
but looking at my pretty blog cheers me up abit lmao. come to think of it i needa start my software assignment, must do well to get first place again ahahaha. and i needa study abit for english. kinda hard to cos its a listening task but yehhhhh.....oh and i needa finish my essay tonight. ahah yeh the one i said i was suppose to do last night or this morning. well this morning didn't happen lmao i was too tired plus there was roadwork RIGHT OUTSIDE my window == fcking drilling holes in the cement sighhhhhh my house room was shaking -____-;;
i guess thats enough rage for today =) might come back later, if i dun feel like working on my essay ;) ♥ ♥

p.s gl to my rivo babies with their trials ♥ ♥

NewLayout♥

Ahaha so you guys notice the new layout?
there were so many pretty ones that i had to choose from =( ahah since i didn't exactly have a love story so yeh decided to change my layout just so i had something to do besides my essay ahaha which i have not started but will when i wake up early tomorrow =) (although at this time i doubt it hehe)
and i got carried away with the pictures. fk it was a pain in the pass to keep resizing them =( hmph

but yeh it all turned out good (y) AHAHAHA

oh yeh. ill use this as a reminder.
Me and Quyen's Bet: If someone asks me out for formal then i havta shout quyen one hour of pool. But if no one does, then she has to shout me. [16.06.10].
ahaha just abit of fun. she thinks ill get asked. i dun think i will lmao so yehhh

anywayz ima sleep now. freezing. my whole body is shaking and my fingers are too frozen to type. Maybe only wearing one layer isn't helping either keke

gdniteswtdrms ♥♥ =)

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=( ok so im over this whole business about 'him'
but a certain someone keeps rubbing it in my face
and now i can't help but think about it =(
that girl must be lucky that she gets to hug him...sighhhhhh

ahhh well. its in the past and will stay in the past.

but i must rage abit...WHERES MY PRINCE CHARMING? ;D
ahahaha on the other hand just abit of fun. i realised what type of guy appeals to me LMAO
♥ Dancer
♥ Guitar Player
♥ Driver ;D
♥ and of course Bad Boys
LMAOOOOOOO
ahaha if a guy had all four of those. i would never let him go ;D ahahahahahahah

anywayz since reccently everyones been talking about their studies, trials and wat not. ill tell you mine
Did my math and jap assesments last week =( and i epic failed. ok not fail fail but asian fail lmaooo
Ext 1 was hopeless! and so was 2U...sighhhhhhh both tests really separated the smart and dumb ppl and no suprise im in the dumb category LMAOOO
Jap reading was hopeless as well. and reading is like the only thing im confident with =( the class average was apparently 17/40 and im guessing my mark is around 20ishhh =( sighhh so its just pass. but listening was easier =)sigh realised how much im falling behind in Jap. I have speaking coming up REALLLLLY REALLLLLY SOOOON!
like my trials for speaking are week 2 next week and my HSC!!!!!!!! is on the 21st of August.
and then theres UMAT. sigh think ill fail epically. expecially session 2. its sooooo hard =( and i do wanna get into optom but im assuming its like 96+ =( i mean they tell you to do advance science and transfer if you dont get in but thats 94 =( and thats like the max ill prob get if i tried really hard =(
and then theres the worry when i do get in, if ill love the suject =( i was never really a science person =\ but i guess the first goal is to get into uni aye?
well tahts all for tonight. trying to get into the habit of sleeping early (y)

gdniteswtdrms to all you readers out there ahaha if there are any ;)
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=( He finally got a gf

i was upset when i first found out. but i forgot the next day.
guess thats a good sign? :)
think im too in love with pool right now ;D

More Facts

5. When you fall, learn to get up yourself. even though you have people to support you. They're not always there.

6. Guys who spit everywhere is a major turn-off.

Fact

4. If a guy only likes you with makeup. dump him and he can go suck a dick x)

Fact

2. No matter how much you try not to miss someone, you end up missing them more.

3. We always tell ourselves in the morning that we'll sleep early that night but it never happens.

Fact

1. Girls can't help loving bad boys even if it ends in heartbreak

O.M.G

D= got the exam timetable today. i guess its ok.
dun have two subjects in one day unlike some unfortunate people. poor babies
BUH BUH my LAST TEST IS PHYS ON THE 4th NOVEMBER! OHH YEAAAAHHHH~~~~~ after that its partay~~~~~~~~~ and i wanna go queensland keke lets hope my wifey ends early too ;D

so heres my timetable. not far away D=

English (Advanced) Paper 1 15.10

English (Advanced) Paper 2 18.10

Software Design and Development 21.10

Mathematics 25.10

Mathematics Extension 1 27.10

Japanese Beginners 03.11

Physics 04.11

i guess its ok =) phys is the day after jap but i have like 5 ish days to prepare so thats ok. ahhh the more i look at the timetable the more it feels like HSC is right around the corner. 6months D=

RWAR

ok i take back wat i said in the last post...well kinda

just counted the weeks left D=

20 WEEKS OF SCHOOL LEFT OMMMMMMMMMMGG!!! and after tomorrow, we're halfway through the week already T_________________________T

but if u count the months its like 6 months...doesn't sound as short but its still D=

guess i should use the first 2-3 weeks where there's hardly any hw to organise my notes aye? timetables come out on thurs i think D=

well to start off ill try to sleep early. so ill talk to you guys (or whoever actually reads this blog) laters =)

keke might i also add im offically married to quyen on fb xD LMAO
and we found our new eye candy ;) shooooooo hoooottt~~~ <3 LMAO

alright im off for real now :D toodles xoxo

=)

sup guys
i finally got my fb back keke after 1 and a half weeks =O
i went back to twitter LMAO then i just remember i still have my blog keke
sorry for neglecting u babies~ ♥ ♥

OMMMMMG im soooo tired D= 7 exams in a row ><;; from last monday to today but i finally have a break tomorrow XD
then its my last exam~~ jap speaking on wednesday
keke
then its partttyyyy on thurs =) then DFO on sunday =D
then its back to tutoring everyday in the holis...sigh
talk about no life

hmm theres a drink up party on the 10th...should i go? ><;;
theres like heaps of ppl going and i guess some ppl i dun wanna see ><;;
but like i have tutor evvvverrrryyydayyyyyyyyyyyy in the holis besides weekends so thats the only time to go out and play D=

sighhhhhh

going to watch my drama kekekekekeke
♥ ♥ ♥ Stella~~

p.s why's everyone all stressed? i kno its hsc and all but after its our last year of school, you dun want it to be full of sad memories, its should be unforgettable HAPPY memories withh all your lovely friends ♥ ♥

ohhh and i've been noticing this guy reccently hehe, i kno wat you guys are thinking....omg again! lmao but his yr 11 lmao tooo young i guess.... and too skinny his legs are the like size of my arms LMAOOOOOOOOO

KYAAA~

LOOK~~ i just got new pictures of my darling (=
isn't she cute? ♥ ♥ ♥

she grew up sooo pretty =3


.....and a cry baby ;D with epic hair :

RIP Grandma

Guess the shock went away and reality hit.
i randomly started crying today when some people noticed i wasn't acting normal, and they were wondering if i was ok.
Wat worst i ended up crying in front of everyone
but thankfully it was before the math exam so people prob thought i was crying cos of that...

I hate it when people say my family's perfect...well its not, no ones perfect...
i have a uncle who is hopeless at everything.
His in his late 30's and is still 'studying' to become, not the assistance of a doctor which is a nurse but the assistance of the nurse...wtf is that
He has a 14month daughter and his wife is just as bad. Both of them laze around at home. Sleep till the afternoon, uncle goes off to work for 4 hours (prob gets paid less then someone half his age)
and his wife just sits around at home. She can't speak english but wont get a job at china town cos she thinks shes 'all that' cos shes got a american citizenship
When we went over to visit, their daughter was only few weeks old, and being babies, they tend to cry alot. What was most disgusting was that my uncle passed HIS daughter who was crying in the middle of the night to my grandma, which then after he went back to bed.
I hope that little girl doesn't grow up like my uncle, always wanting the best but doesn't have the power to get it so he asks his older siblings and my grandparent's for money.

My mum says that my grandma passed away cos of the stress she was reciving from my uncle and his family....
then she goes on and compares about how she was taught in her family, how regardless if it was a boy or girl they were all taught the same way...
how my grandma always spoils my uncle and how my dads doing the same when he should be teaching him the right thing
well my uncle is fking in his late 30s, if he was gonna learn the 'right way in life' i think he would have got it ages ago. Teaching him now isn't gonna work
when his been spoiled for the last 30 years or so. My mum goes on about how much she hates my uncle, but only in front of me since she doesn't wanna cause a fight with my dad
well frankly i dun give a shit, i just feel sorry for that little girl who's prob gonna be exposed to the same teachings by her father.
oh and mum, Im not gonna go america to study, no matter how much you say would benifit me or that my grandma wanted me too.

All this pisses me off ARGH! and im prob gonna be stiked bu thunder or something for desrespecting elders but i have to let it out. Since im younger i can't say this to adults cos ill prob get slapped for it.
I feel abit better after getting this out. I feel sorry for my grandma who had to deal with a son like that but i guess its a parents responsibility how a child is brought up.

Grandma i still love you dearly and i hope you rest in peace <3 ill miss you every much although you nag alot, but i kno you mean well.





The little girl who i grew to love deeply even though our time together was only a month. Miss you sweetie ♥

We will always love you

My grandma passed away last night right after my dad and bro rushed over to america to see her.

I guess im so shocked that i dont kno how to react when my mum told me just then.

I feel so bad, when my grandma from my mum's side passed away i cried alot but when i heard this news i don't feel as sad >< dun get me wrong, i still love this grandma alot...sigh....

RIP 'Mama' <3 we will always love you

sigh

new problems, but dunno how to write about it D= so much things going on in my mind right now ><