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so wat am i suppose to do now? rumors about me are spreading, and im told half the story but not the other half. yeh im not the nicest girl out there, but it stilll makes me sad to hear these rumors being made up. i can't solve it if i don't kno who started it. and yeh i've changed since i moved schools so what?, when you are with a new group, isn't it natural that you try to fit in? its hard when you dun quite fit in with your new group, because they've been with each other for years, and you don't fit in with your old group cos you dun see them anymore.

so one of the rumors going around is that im telling people not to go to a certain friend's party because im not going. i don't kno how these rumors started, and i don't recall saying that, maybe what i said was interpret in a wrong way, but all i said was that it was really expensive and right now i don't have the money to pay for something so expensive. If i actually forked up the money for this party, i would rather spend it on something that i've been waiting to buy. I have tutor that day anywayz so its not like i could go, but i was planning to drop by at the beginning so that i could give her present to her, but i can't now, cos im apparently telling not to go to the party.

someone told me that i shouldnt worry about it, but its easier said then done.
and someone told me to stay out of trouble. how am i suppose to stay out of fucking trouble if i don't even kno what trouble im in.

publising this blog could cause more rumors and trouble for me because people would probably think im looking for attention, but its hard to hold in and i can't tell anyone in any of my two groups cos it'll prob spread around and cause more rumors. then again i don't kno who reads this blog. so either way more rumors are going to start. i cannot fucking wait till i finish HSC. what a waste of tears.