the 'if only' feeling

sighhh sooo i said he had a gf right? and im pretty much over the fact
but my heart died for 10 second when i saw his dp of him and his gf kissing =\ nooo im not stalking him. i just so happened to see it in the 'Whats New' box thing on messenger. and if his reads this then thats even more akward but hey what are the chances?.

in that 10 seconds many things came by in my mind. 'if only that was me?' or 'if only hadn't been so dumb and oblivious' or the one that hurts the most 'if only i had the courage to tell him how much i loved him' =(

then theres 'what ifs'...'What if we were dating? What would had happened? Maybe we don't get along and it would end up in heart break anyways'.......'What if it was all one sided all along....'

right so that 10 second is now over. and im kinda back to normal and back to stressing about my software assignment so i think i'll go do that now =)