Suck Up

so i was being a goody goody, trying to suck up to my mum by doing chores so i could go somewhere during the holidays, and i discovered another reason why i hate winter....when you're trying to fold clothes and you can't decide whether the clothes are still wet or just cold, and you're fingers get frozen as you're molesting the clothes to decide which one it is. sighhhhhh

Hello there =)

helloooooo~~~ =)

sighhh i reccently changed my mobile number cos for some unknown reason my number isn't registered or something under the phone companies and FUCK ITS A PAIN IN THE ASS! had to send everyone a message to tell them i changed, and for some god damn reason it sent the message twice to everyone so i prob wasted like $20 right there == and i havta change my bank and all that shit RWAR! RAGGGEEEE! stupid optus, you started this!

so yehhhh just finished making cookie&cream cheesecakes =) kekeke sooo yummmyyyyyy~~~~~ and right now, am waiting for my bed to heat up from the electric blanket so i can sleep ;D wanna join me? its cold =( need some body warmth ehehe

Stella's Wishes and Desires
♥ New Shoes (actually MORE SHOES)
♥ Watch Toy Story 3, A-Team and Shrek
♥ New Clothes....stock up for winter =D
♥ More Makeup~~~
♥ finds her dream formal dress
ahah as you can see most of it requires money so my biggest wish is MORE MONEYYY~! ;D
ooooo and one last one
♥ HSC TO BE OVER! =)

anywayz think my bed's warmed up now, so im off to bed. see you there darlings ;D

driving~

kekekekeke i went driving for the first time today~ sooo funnn~~~
with my bro screaming 'YOUR SPEEDING' in the back xD ....i was not speeding btw hmph
ahahaha and my dad scared shitless next to me, pretending not to be.
pretty good for a first timer ;D expect my dad tried to get me to do a 90degrees turn and i went onto the kerb trying AHAHA so we went to a deserted place near my house and went around the roundabouts till i got used to it =)

kekeke going again next sundayyy~~` =D

still up

so im still up doing my SDD why?
some loser is distracting me on msn ahahah i joke i joke.
i cbf right now =D

the 'if only' feeling

sighhh sooo i said he had a gf right? and im pretty much over the fact
but my heart died for 10 second when i saw his dp of him and his gf kissing =\ nooo im not stalking him. i just so happened to see it in the 'Whats New' box thing on messenger. and if his reads this then thats even more akward but hey what are the chances?.

in that 10 seconds many things came by in my mind. 'if only that was me?' or 'if only hadn't been so dumb and oblivious' or the one that hurts the most 'if only i had the courage to tell him how much i loved him' =(

then theres 'what ifs'...'What if we were dating? What would had happened? Maybe we don't get along and it would end up in heart break anyways'.......'What if it was all one sided all along....'

right so that 10 second is now over. and im kinda back to normal and back to stressing about my software assignment so i think i'll go do that now =)

sex change?

ok so i got my banana milk today ♥♥ but i couldn't help but buy SPICY chicken and rice cake from the krn store =( so now i sound like a man. woopeedoo == maybe i should have gone with something that wasn't spicy , cos it just made my throat worst sighhh

getting better

slept another 16hrs. didn't get up till like 6pm on sat and went back to sleep at 8pm till 12pm on sunday =( sighhhh and im sooo hungry D= havnt eaten solid food. all i've been eaten is congee and drinking water =( i crave banana milk right now =(

still sick

ok so i slept like 16hrs. i still feel like shit. and cos i feel like shit i have no motivation what so ever to start my SDD assignment or study for my english assessment on monday =(
also my whole body is aching which makes me feel old sighhhh =(

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=( sick and dying...

depressed

ok so i just stepped on the scale after dinner. and OMMMMMMMGGG!
im 6Xkgs and my bro is also 6Xkgs, thats not a good sign, considering he lost alot of weight. soon he'll be as heavy as me OMMMMGGGGGG but i think its just his muscles turning into fat from lack of exercise and too much DOTA xD
but srsly i needa lose weight....sighhhhhh

fine ill set a goal!
Lose 5-10kg by the end of 2011 ahaha i guess thats do-able if i tried x) but yeh i would be happy if i got there kekeke

sighh so embarassing. ima soo fking heavy and fat LMAO

wtf

ok so what the fuck am i suppose to do now?

that certain friend i mentioned before just goes to 'him' and tells him i like him == wtf and yeh the one with the gf already. fucking hell == im over it! he's just the first person i really liked alot sighhh == fuck!
now i look like someone who can't let the past go. or that im playing with him or some shit. i still really hope deep down, that this friend was joking when he told me he talked to him == plus i dun think i can look at him again cos it'll be awkard and weird == fuck!
sighhh!! more problems adding to the ones im already facing ==

yeh ahahaha its been ages since i raged on my blog lmaoooo =)
but looking at my pretty blog cheers me up abit lmao. come to think of it i needa start my software assignment, must do well to get first place again ahahaha. and i needa study abit for english. kinda hard to cos its a listening task but yehhhhh.....oh and i needa finish my essay tonight. ahah yeh the one i said i was suppose to do last night or this morning. well this morning didn't happen lmao i was too tired plus there was roadwork RIGHT OUTSIDE my window == fcking drilling holes in the cement sighhhhhh my house room was shaking -____-;;
i guess thats enough rage for today =) might come back later, if i dun feel like working on my essay ;) ♥ ♥

p.s gl to my rivo babies with their trials ♥ ♥

NewLayout♥

Ahaha so you guys notice the new layout?
there were so many pretty ones that i had to choose from =( ahah since i didn't exactly have a love story so yeh decided to change my layout just so i had something to do besides my essay ahaha which i have not started but will when i wake up early tomorrow =) (although at this time i doubt it hehe)
and i got carried away with the pictures. fk it was a pain in the pass to keep resizing them =( hmph

but yeh it all turned out good (y) AHAHAHA

oh yeh. ill use this as a reminder.
Me and Quyen's Bet: If someone asks me out for formal then i havta shout quyen one hour of pool. But if no one does, then she has to shout me. [16.06.10].
ahaha just abit of fun. she thinks ill get asked. i dun think i will lmao so yehhh

anywayz ima sleep now. freezing. my whole body is shaking and my fingers are too frozen to type. Maybe only wearing one layer isn't helping either keke

gdniteswtdrms ♥♥ =)

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=( ok so im over this whole business about 'him'
but a certain someone keeps rubbing it in my face
and now i can't help but think about it =(
that girl must be lucky that she gets to hug him...sighhhhhh

ahhh well. its in the past and will stay in the past.

but i must rage abit...WHERES MY PRINCE CHARMING? ;D
ahahaha on the other hand just abit of fun. i realised what type of guy appeals to me LMAO
♥ Dancer
♥ Guitar Player
♥ Driver ;D
♥ and of course Bad Boys
LMAOOOOOOO
ahaha if a guy had all four of those. i would never let him go ;D ahahahahahahah

anywayz since reccently everyones been talking about their studies, trials and wat not. ill tell you mine
Did my math and jap assesments last week =( and i epic failed. ok not fail fail but asian fail lmaooo
Ext 1 was hopeless! and so was 2U...sighhhhhhh both tests really separated the smart and dumb ppl and no suprise im in the dumb category LMAOOO
Jap reading was hopeless as well. and reading is like the only thing im confident with =( the class average was apparently 17/40 and im guessing my mark is around 20ishhh =( sighhh so its just pass. but listening was easier =)sigh realised how much im falling behind in Jap. I have speaking coming up REALLLLLY REALLLLLY SOOOON!
like my trials for speaking are week 2 next week and my HSC!!!!!!!! is on the 21st of August.
and then theres UMAT. sigh think ill fail epically. expecially session 2. its sooooo hard =( and i do wanna get into optom but im assuming its like 96+ =( i mean they tell you to do advance science and transfer if you dont get in but thats 94 =( and thats like the max ill prob get if i tried really hard =(
and then theres the worry when i do get in, if ill love the suject =( i was never really a science person =\ but i guess the first goal is to get into uni aye?
well tahts all for tonight. trying to get into the habit of sleeping early (y)

gdniteswtdrms to all you readers out there ahaha if there are any ;)
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=( He finally got a gf

i was upset when i first found out. but i forgot the next day.
guess thats a good sign? :)
think im too in love with pool right now ;D