rant.

hello dears, just another rant session before bed time ahaha
do people enjoy lying to other people? arghh its soo annoying, yeah it may be essential to lie sometimes or as a joke but when its about someone getting seriously injured or moving away then its serious shit. == do people find this fun? to watch people believe 'truth' and knowing they're wrong? ughhh pisses me off. and you lose so must trust between each other == but they expect you to act like everythings ok? == sighhh

and theres a difference from being honest to just plain out dickhead == yeah telling the truth is good, but when they tell it as a joke but in reality it hurts the person, then thats just down right messed out. == KFJEOI&%)(*$#%OIHJfekjg*^LKLKDJFLSK

yeshh that was my little rant =) went bbq today. it was fun seeing everyone again ahaha since it was a bbq for pretty much everyone who went to the after party for formal =) like little kids, we starting playing with ice, yes in this cold weather. maybe thats why im sick now ahaha xD

hard to believe its almost a new year aye? well im gonna be camping out in circular quay on friday from like 10am. fun. ahaha never done it before lmao. last year it was darling habour at 4 and that was painful already sighhh. mum being all protective and asian, full gave me that lecture, 'don't wear dresses...dont' wear heels so you can run if anything happens...dont take side bags otherwise someone can take it off you...' that kind of shit. paranoid parents, yeah im not saying they're always wrong, but they overthink shit sometimes ahaha xD

anyways im off to bed. dad told me to sleep before he comes home tomorrow otherwise i can't stay out on nye. ahaha thats around 12ish so i should sleep now to adjust my sleeping patterns LMAO this means i will NOT be waking up at 5pm as usual xD

goodnights swtdrms my darlings ♥♥

Christmas eve =D

ahaha hard to believe today is christmas eve...doensn't even feel like it >< maybe cos im stuck home =( and all i've done is play maplestory =( sad i kno ahahah xD
mum just came home, bought this massive turkey but my cousins arnt coming over to eat, so its only like the 5 of us o_O actually i don't even kno if bro is coming home ahaha prob out somewhere with he's gf ;D so yeh. gonna be alot of turkey tonight lmao.

wow i discovered in mexico, they don't throw their toilet paper down the toilet, cos it clogs it up lmao, yesh that would mean big or small, the toilet paper goes in the bin. ewww ahaha

hmmm sleepover at quyen's tomorrow. me and quyen are the only girls so guess who's gonna end up cooking everything? ...me == since quyen is hopeless, im gonna attempt to give her something to do, but will prob get fustrated watching her and end up doing it myself sighhh like always ==
but pity theres not much people staying over. only like the 6 of us =( well i guess christmas is with family so yeh. oh well we'll prob still end up having fun =)

soo bored right now. nothing to do =( watched like most dramas so i have none left sighh =( im gonna go find something to do =D may be back tonight :) toodles for now ♥♥

12:20am ~ im back to say MERRY CHRISTMAS MY DEARS ♥♥ love you guys so much =D aahaha xD but yeh..way to start off christmas ahaha got into a argument with mum, apprently im not allowed to go tomorrow but meh. ill be gone by the time she wakes up == and its over something stupid as well arghh makes me so pissed =(. but i shall not ruin the holiday mood so i shall end on a positive note. hope you've all been good little children so you get pressies from santa =D ahahah off to bed now. early start tomorrow.
goodnightswtdrms =D

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naww you darlings are soo cute =D thanks for the love my dears =) ahaha xD

well i have alot of things planned for the next few weeks so it'll gey my mind off stuff =)
dad gave me abit of money so time to go shopping on boxing day ;D ahahah nahh ill be good girl and not use it all lmao =D need to save abit for all the outings too ahah =D
anyways did i tell you guys? my cousin from mexico came over to study and is staying with us for awhile. funny thing is, he's full chinese but he can't speak chinese only abit of english but he's fluent in spanish ahaha xD pretty funny. even funnier when my mum tries to communicate with him =D ahaha
anyways its late, need to go buy stuff for christmas party at quyens so im off to bed =)
gdniteswtdrms darlings ♥♥

confused. + abit of rambling

Despite being in the 21st century, do you really think girls and guys can be best friends? ahahaha not trying to be old fashion here, but seriously? its always the case where one ends up liking the other one or they both like each other =\ . Or when you're best friends with someone, and their attention gets taken away by other people, makes you feel sad ahaha. hmm im gonna stop rambling ahaha all this shit sounds too mushy lmaoo =D

but yeh =( these days, something always feels strange =\ like im missing something D; but i dunno what....and i've been feeling lonely these days and i don't kno why =( right now i feel like being hugged ahahah xP
oh and remember me telling you guys, im cursed in romance? the curse is still here AHAHAH ;D

maybe its cos of that, that im feeling strange ahaha or maybe cos i have no future lmao dun even kno if ill get into my course or not =( and besides my course i want now, i don't kno what else i wanna do....ppl are saying, 'just get into uni first, then decide' but wats the point in going uni if you get into a course that isn't going to get you anywhere? =( anyways im looking at transferring but its really hard, so its pretty much like hsc all over again D; oh boy...
AHHHH i need a hug =( im off now darlings
gdnites swtdrms ♥♥

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hello darlings =) im back again ahaha
quick blog before im off to bed =) nothing much has been happening these days...except me being bad girl and going home at 2am >< woops keke
yeshhh i've been thinking about what to do in uni the past few days, at first i was considering trying for my course which was high 90s but i don't want to risk it, so i may just go for science straight up. But then my friend told me what would i do if i couldn't transfer? he said it's harder at usyd D; yeshh im in deep shit if i can't transfer. i honestly don't know what else to do =( sighhh

oh that feeling came back, you know when you just feel like something's wrong but you don't know what it is, yeh happening to me now, i have so much running through my head =( my future and current personal life sighhh =( can't say life sucks right now but its not the best either =(

realised what a depressing blog this is ahahah xD im not depressed...=D
OMFG I STILL HAVE NOT FOUND A JOB D: NO ONE WANTS ME T_________T
ahaha kind of reminds me of how these days my dad's been asking if i have a bf cos i've been staying out late lmao but i just tell him no one wants you're daugther ;D ahahah yeshh they seem surprised when i say i don't have a bf yet they oppose to one at the same time? strange strange parents ahaha anyawyz its almost 6, i should be off to bed ;D so i shall go off to bed keke

gdniteswtdrms dears ♥♥
p.s i havnt been blogging about what i've been doing these days cos i really cbf about it ahahaha but mostly its the usual, city, karaoke, pool, occasional parties + alki but thats about it =) dw im a responsible girl =D so yeh ahahah

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I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day… ♥

Been awhile....

So it's been awhile since I blogged and I have come back at a crucial time, yes the results are out.
So the results for the exams came out yesterday, I thought I did alright but I knew it wasn't going to get in into the 90s. So I stayed up with a few friends for the results, which was fun cos I had friends to accompany me.

Today the atar results came out, I had already prepared myself for 80s but deep down I hoped for a 90 oh YEHH. The final results were high 80s, at least I beat my bro Ahaha but that's not gonna stop him from giving me shit about my previous cocky attitude of 'I'll get 90'. Yes I am quite disappointed in myself sigh oh well reality is reality, cant change my results now. Even if I went back to do the exams all over again I don't think I would have done much better.

Ahaha Now back to sleep :) going out with Quyen later to eat away our depression like always :) I may be back later. Toodles my darlings. To all the HSC students out there. Don't be too sad about if results :) it's not the end of the world. :D

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wow its been ages since i've blogged ahaha
been lazy xD and busy..kinda ahahah was out almost everyday since hsc ended so i've been pretty tired, but right now im having like 3 days break ahahah xD im soo poor noww =( and no one wants me sighhh, i fully signed up for soo many jobsss =( i just hope they're not calling home phone cos the home phone isn't alawys connected and no one picks it up anywayz ><;; sighhhhh
my skin started breaking out again >< guess its from all the makeup for partying and shit sighhhhh gonna take a break from makeup ahaha going out again on wed but thats swimming so no need for makeup lmaooo xD its a indoor pool so at least i wont tan ahah bbut ima gonna hit the beaches soon =) alot of ppl are on holidays so i guess its mostly just me and quyen lmaoo we're both desperately looking for jobsss D;
so these days besides going out, i've been playing maple story! aaha yehh i knooo....lame yeh? but its addictive ;D and watching dramas which is pretty typical ahahah
life has been fun lmaoo but i feel abit empty cosss i have no more goals to work towards since school is finished ><;; i dun really want my results, i think im prob gonna get like a 85 sighhhhh thats soo depressing T_T anyways just a quick update before im off again =)
toodles darlingsss =) until next time <3

tired =(

so formal was last night ahaha it was pretty fun. the place was alright but the food was shit...as usual.
..the photos are horrible! photos really do make u look 10 pounds fatter...or maybe i am that fat just i choose not to believe it...sighhhh =[
so after formal we went to the house we booked in stanmore. at first it was alright...didn't drink much, maybe like half a bottle of cruiser and a shot, so i was fine, turned abit red but i didn't feel the alki so yeh...but then it all went downhill when the police came about noise complain, my friend who organised it, is running around the house telling everyone to shut up and stuff. Cops came twice that night, my friend was pretty much passed out from alki and stress so i ended up going around telling everyone to be quiet sighhh. AND there was vomit everywhere arghhh.
at one point i couldnt even go outside cos it smelt sooo bad, felt like throwing up myself too =[
aahh but two of my friends stayed at maccas all night lmaooo xD maccas was like 5 mins away and it was 24hrs so we went for a few 'maccas run' ahahaha
then around 4ish, we decided to sleep on the floor in the living room cos the room we were planning to sleep in, smelt like vomit =(
at least it was hot during the night so we didn't need blankets but some of the boys stayed up all night ahaha i only got about 2 hours sleeep so yehh. then 2 of my friends went back to my house to get there shit, and they ended up sleeping on my bed so i pulled a mat out and slept on the floor for like 2 hours ahaha then i slept another 10 after they left xD
but yeh formal was pretty fun, its a party so ppl are bound to get drunk lmaoo we left early so we didn't havta clean up the vomit, and as usual i ended up cooking some food for everyone ahaha at least this time i wasnt one of the ones who was 'passed' out lmaoo