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shout out to the losers who read my blog but don't leave a comment.
YOU'RE GAY!
you kno who you are :)
had a fun time reminiscing over old memories with you guys <3

desperate for advice

why do i feel like im in a realationship that is more phsyical then emotional? no i dont' mean to that extreme but he's constantly telling how much he misses me via 'texts' yet he doesn't reply to my texts when i suggest to meet up. I feel like i constantly have to stand aside to make way for him, and thats not my ideal relationship. But i don't want to let him go =( its only been like 2 weeks, is it too early to give up? should i wait it out abit more.

I can't help but think im constantly thinking about him more then he does about me and i mean genuinely, not just in 'words'. sigh why are you guys always like that? you sweet talk a girl into finally trusting you, then you start backing off? == i have lost faith in you men. no im not going to turn lesbian but ARGHHHHH #)(*%KLJSFLK)#TET rage ==

there seems to be more cons then pros in this relationship, maybe i should give up early, before it causes more damage to me. sigh any advice dears?

Unwanted situation

So recently I have found someone to add to my life. Guess things are goin great for us, but sometimes I can't help but feel insecure being with him. I guess it hasn't been that long since I've been with him so I should really give it more time but the fact that we starting our relationship not long after we met each for the first time makes me feel abit worried that it'll end just as fast. I admit I am abit of the jealous type, and he personally has alot of female friends that he's close to...guess I can't really say anything about that since I generally get along with guys more and probably have more close guy friends then girls. Sigh guess I worry too much. I don't want to be seen as a over jealous girlfriend either :(

It's just been awhile since I found someone that I can open up to but I'm abit scared that it'll end badly like the previously with 'him'. I have to admit that my feelings right now arn't as strong as the feelings I had for 'him' but it's getting there hence why I'm scared to open up completely. Generally it isn't something I worry about daily, but it's a thought that comes up when I'm alone and thinking ahaha

Guess I should really leave this to time. I know it's unfair of me to not trust him completely but expect all of he's trust from him. Well if it ends badly, I guess it'll just be added to my book of experiences but I can't say I'll be able to open up to anyone again. But hey, maybe it will end well. :)


Just another rant written by the bored me on the way home from uni haha
Goodbye darlings :) until next time <3

ROFL situation

awkard moment when you call you're bf and he picks up and tells you he's in the shower... aahahah xP

Hello darlings =)

here once again to procastinate cos i don't wanna do my group assignment ahaha xP cannot wait til its over tomorrowww D; except i dunno if my public speaking skills are up to scratch =( sighhhhh good thing i don't have a big part (y) ahaha hope everything goes well tomorrow =) we're incooperating a role play into our presentation. 25mins doesn't sound enough if you think about it >< sighhhh back to workkk

goodnightsswtdrmsss

...oh boy now he's singing lmao xP

i wonder...

over these days i can't help but wonder...why me? ahahah
out of everyone, why me?
im not saying i have completely no self esteem but i can't help but wonder D;
and i hate that feeling when you wanna text, hug, call, see a certain someone but know you can't =( SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND OMGGG dying from group assignment and extra days of work doesn't help at ALLLLLLLLL =( maybe i should stop procastinating......NAH! x)


ahaha shortblog. but thats all i have on my mind now, update you dears when the time comes :)

BTW FIRST BLOG AS A 18-ER xP keke

Fml

Hello dears :) havnt been here for awhile, just another rant blog about my life sigh

Been so busy these days with uni exams coming up abs extra shifts of work :( and I've been talking to people I never talked to more often these days ahaha. Guess uni changes a lot, especially since I'm at a campus where most of my friends don't go. New enivonment = new experiences i guess....

So now to the issues that have gotten me frustrated over, a close friend or best friend is someone who will always be there for you and support you with your decisions, just cos you don't talk as often to each other due to other commitments does not change the fact that your still valued as a friend. That's why your a close friend, someone who respects my choices and understands me even without phyically talking. I really wished the person i am referring to would understand that. Desperately holding on to someone who wants space to attend to other commitments is just going to push them away more and probaly forever ==
The way this person is acting now is making me from concern to fustrated. Please just stop.

Yesh that's my rage finish :) on a brighter note it's my birthday soon ;) yay about time too Ahah cannot wait xP especially since it's after test period and followed by break woooohhh!! :) ahaha

But yeah back to assignments and studying now (Y)
Until next time my dears. Stay smiling :D
Toodles :)

P.s excuse the structure or typo of this blog, was on my phone while writting it :)

hello darlings =)

now..i kno i havnt been blogging...ehehehe xD but i've been busy?...with all the party's and all =D but i can't deny the fact that laziness was mixed in with it ahahah xP

so today was orientation day for me and cumperland campus, cumpo for short. i've told ppl that it looks like a shit hole...and it does, but it also reminds me of blackwattle bay ahaha which was also a shithole LMAO we were seperated into our courses for one of our talks, and there was only about 40 or so people doing my course. there was only about 9 or so people within us who were doing M of Nutrition and Dietics as well. wow not a very high number, no wonder theres alot of competition to get in...they probably only accept 10 students a year sighhhh =( makes my transferring harder D; During this talk, we were introduced to this thing called 'campus rewards' and it was basically this membership you signed up for with $199, which gave you discount to the food, bookshops, gym and such. so i guess in the long run it'll save alot of money. The president of campus rewards, was telling us, how cumbo campus was on of the best campus's to socialise since there arn't many people attending there compared to the main campus. He was saying how in a lecture in the main campus, it would be hard to meet people, cos every lecture with about 100 or more students, you could be sitting next to someone different every lecture. however at cumpo campus, you would have your mates sitting in a whole row next to you. since we arnt that big to start off with, everyone knows each other. im glad that i get to see some familiar faces =) which will be good. and i hope i make other friends ahaha xP but yeah we'll see xP

ahhh also some of you may realise how much i swear and put up my rude finger at ppl. its gotten to the point where i sometimes accidently do it to my parents, or do it in front of my parents to my brother. yeah thats bad ahahah so like im trying to stop that =) so if you see me swearing and such....hit me? ahahah xP
anyways im going back to my drama lmao hope you guys are grateful, i stopped my drama halfway to blog ;D
toodles darlings and hope for a new blog soon =)

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10:06am ~ What a great start to uni huh? On the train to Cumberland campus for a chemistry bridging course which I thought started t 10:30 but was really 9 Fk me. == and to make it worst u don't kno if I'm enrolled into the course or not considering I didn't get an email to confirm my payment. Fk? Yes I kno T.T and the weather is gloomy and gay :( dont like uni already D; i hope the rest of the year will be better :( and that they let me into the bridging course despite being 1hr and a half late. I shall come and update later. Goodbye.