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It hurts so much :( why won't it stop? ;( can't eat or sleep properly sigh...
I'm fine when I'm around people but when I'm alone, I start thinking about the 'what ifs', what if I had done that instead? Or what if I had been more mature about it? Sigh but like my best friend said, it would have happened eventually, best it happen when it's not that far into the relationship. Guess that's one thing I should be 'happy' about, if I'm like this already what would happen if this occurred later on?

But is it wrong of me for wanting to be with him again?? I always thought the girls who got back with their bf after breaking up, were stupid and just hurting themselves but now I know how much it hurts and that you'll do anything to stop the pain.

But you know what? My sadness has turned into anger. Angry at myself for being like this, when really it shouldn't even be a big deal at all. I think about the things my friends are going through around me and try to tell myself, I shouldn't be acting like this when clearly there are people around me who need more support. My best friend was telling me how I look tough on the outside but when it comes to relationships I get attached really easy :(

Wish I could just erase my memory Ahah maybe one day I'll just wake up and forget about it completely. But I know it'll take me ages to do that.