i wonder...

over these days i can't help but wonder...why me? ahahah
out of everyone, why me?
im not saying i have completely no self esteem but i can't help but wonder D;
and i hate that feeling when you wanna text, hug, call, see a certain someone but know you can't =( SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND OMGGG dying from group assignment and extra days of work doesn't help at ALLLLLLLLL =( maybe i should stop procastinating......NAH! x)


ahaha shortblog. but thats all i have on my mind now, update you dears when the time comes :)

BTW FIRST BLOG AS A 18-ER xP keke

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Hello dears :) havnt been here for awhile, just another rant blog about my life sigh

Been so busy these days with uni exams coming up abs extra shifts of work :( and I've been talking to people I never talked to more often these days ahaha. Guess uni changes a lot, especially since I'm at a campus where most of my friends don't go. New enivonment = new experiences i guess....

So now to the issues that have gotten me frustrated over, a close friend or best friend is someone who will always be there for you and support you with your decisions, just cos you don't talk as often to each other due to other commitments does not change the fact that your still valued as a friend. That's why your a close friend, someone who respects my choices and understands me even without phyically talking. I really wished the person i am referring to would understand that. Desperately holding on to someone who wants space to attend to other commitments is just going to push them away more and probaly forever ==
The way this person is acting now is making me from concern to fustrated. Please just stop.

Yesh that's my rage finish :) on a brighter note it's my birthday soon ;) yay about time too Ahah cannot wait xP especially since it's after test period and followed by break woooohhh!! :) ahaha

But yeah back to assignments and studying now (Y)
Until next time my dears. Stay smiling :D
Toodles :)

P.s excuse the structure or typo of this blog, was on my phone while writting it :)

hello darlings =)

now..i kno i havnt been blogging...ehehehe xD but i've been busy?...with all the party's and all =D but i can't deny the fact that laziness was mixed in with it ahahah xP

so today was orientation day for me and cumperland campus, cumpo for short. i've told ppl that it looks like a shit hole...and it does, but it also reminds me of blackwattle bay ahaha which was also a shithole LMAO we were seperated into our courses for one of our talks, and there was only about 40 or so people doing my course. there was only about 9 or so people within us who were doing M of Nutrition and Dietics as well. wow not a very high number, no wonder theres alot of competition to get in...they probably only accept 10 students a year sighhhh =( makes my transferring harder D; During this talk, we were introduced to this thing called 'campus rewards' and it was basically this membership you signed up for with $199, which gave you discount to the food, bookshops, gym and such. so i guess in the long run it'll save alot of money. The president of campus rewards, was telling us, how cumbo campus was on of the best campus's to socialise since there arn't many people attending there compared to the main campus. He was saying how in a lecture in the main campus, it would be hard to meet people, cos every lecture with about 100 or more students, you could be sitting next to someone different every lecture. however at cumpo campus, you would have your mates sitting in a whole row next to you. since we arnt that big to start off with, everyone knows each other. im glad that i get to see some familiar faces =) which will be good. and i hope i make other friends ahaha xP but yeah we'll see xP

ahhh also some of you may realise how much i swear and put up my rude finger at ppl. its gotten to the point where i sometimes accidently do it to my parents, or do it in front of my parents to my brother. yeah thats bad ahahah so like im trying to stop that =) so if you see me swearing and such....hit me? ahahah xP
anyways im going back to my drama lmao hope you guys are grateful, i stopped my drama halfway to blog ;D
toodles darlings and hope for a new blog soon =)

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10:06am ~ What a great start to uni huh? On the train to Cumberland campus for a chemistry bridging course which I thought started t 10:30 but was really 9 Fk me. == and to make it worst u don't kno if I'm enrolled into the course or not considering I didn't get an email to confirm my payment. Fk? Yes I kno T.T and the weather is gloomy and gay :( dont like uni already D; i hope the rest of the year will be better :( and that they let me into the bridging course despite being 1hr and a half late. I shall come and update later. Goodbye.

hello darlings, im back =D

ahaha so i wont lie, i've just been down right lazy these days hence why i havnt blogged for so long, its always, 'ill do it tomorrow' or 'ill do it after i finish this' hahaha xP

so i enrolled into uni yesterday =) there wasn't much choice in subjects, we just wrote 'standard year 1 program' and they enrol you into the right courses lol so i got into B of applied science (exercise and sport), hoping to transfer after, but some lady full cut me down when i was enrolling, she was like 'errr, theres about this many places' and she holds up her 10 fingers ahaha bitch lmao

so since its a health science, im going cumberland campus and must i say ITS A SHIT HOLE. how can usyd main campus look so pretty but not the cumberland campus? =( i have to trek it to lidcombe everyday sighhh and what worst is, its right next to that MASSIVE cemetery, scary shit right there =( mum said i can drive ahah better get my Ps fast before she changes her mind xD

so im having a dilema over what shoes to buy ahahah they're pumps, and for some reason they're really cheap so i can't resist but to buy them, shit thing is, i dunno which colour to buy =(
help? =)

:)

hello dears, another blog before im off to bed =)
as you can see i finally got around to updating the photos on the left hand side =D took the 08moments off to make way for the soon to come 11moments ahaha and added alot more 10moments =) enjoy ♥♥

went bondi beach today to with a bunch of people to celebrate quyen's birthday, wasn't a offical birthday party ahaha but yeah. the weather was being bipolar like it always is. raining in the morning, sunny when we got there, raining again after an hour ahaha so we all just decided to go ben's house to swim =) ben drove me, quyen, kimi and jason backk to he's house ahah which was good. good thing you can use the kid as a benefit to yourself xD nahhh ill do anything for kimi xP
swam at ben's for quite abit, like 4 hours, everyone took their time getting out of the pool to shower and change expecially quyen, so being the first to finish, stood around yelling at people to get out and change like the mother i am AHAHAH xD
went to eat after at TAKERU OMFG so nicee food and so much to choose from xP then went K at show and then pool ahaha which was pretty cool. cos we went billard world, and we had the whole second lvl to ourselves, so we took liek 4 tables LMAO and then a 'special guest' showed up so i was happy AHAHA xP legs starting to cramp from being cold (if you ever get those) so im off to bed. might go to a bbq tomorrow =)

gdniteswtdrms darlings ♥

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hello there dears~~~ bored? yeah i am ahaha hence why im here ;D
watching the last episode of my drama right now. proud? i watched a 20 ep drama in two days LMAO xD yeshh this is i can achieve in life ahaha jksss

so today was info days at uni yet again, i only went usyd, cos like usual me and quyen slept in so we only got to go usyd ;D so i asked the lady about transferring, she said doing the combined degree, B of applied science/M of Nutrition and Dietics, pretty much guarantees my position in the masters course, but if i can't transfer, i can do it by parts, just its harder, cos i have to choose the relevant subjects, and the better i do, the more chances i can go to masters. requirement is credit average but of course i wanna do better =\ so yeah, need to work hard in uni sighh hsc all over again =(

hmm i should really sleep soon ahaah going quyen's house tomorrow, cos apprently shes lonely at home ahahah dunno wat im going to do there, but prob end up cooking for her like always sighhh
hmm im off now =) goodbye goodniteswtdrms darlings ♥♥♥

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yeshh i kno, im like 3 hours late but HAPPY NEW YEARS DARLINGSS ♥♥ ahahaha
howd you all spend your new years eve? =) mine was camping out at circular quay for 12 hours IN THE FKING HOT SUN OMFG thought i was gonan die, and we wernt that prepared for the sun sighhhh everyone had umbrellas up ahaha xD but yeah i guess it was worth it =D some people are saying the fireworks sucked but i liked them, they were so pretty ahaha maybe cos i got front view of the harbour bridge ;D but yeah it was pretty funny when the fireworks were going off, the outdoor club downstairs were playing all these clubbing music, like dj got us falling in love, bad romance etc, and we were the only people out age and only people who knew the songs ahaha so we were the only ones screaming out the lyrics while everyone looked at us weridly ;D

then it took us like 4o minutes to walk from circular quay to george street cinemas ahaha such a long walk =( and so many people lmaoo we all bought something to eat and made our way back to bens house. by that point i was already dead cos i had been up since 7:30am making sushi so yeah. since it seemed to be taking ages to wait for everyone to shower and actually start drinking, a few of us just went to the living room to sleep ahah xD guess we got the most sleep but it was only about 5 hours anyways =( then we went down to ben's pool for a swim ahahah and played around in the gym..you should see how tank i am ;D AHAHAH a few others joined us as well then we went pepper lunch. OMGGGG the curry rice is soo niceee ahaha like the actualy curry rice not the flavouring. then we went billlard world for pool. ahahah we go there often now cos its so niceee there but only oldish ppl go there so they're arnt as many hot guys to check out compared to dixon house. ahaha common i see eye candy sometimes ;D

im really tired ahahah but i guess a good news is, a project associated with 'match making', me and my friend had been working on for months suceeded. well at least thats what i think ahah xD ahah im off to bed now xD goodniteswtdrmss dears♥♥

p.s my friend made up this really cute thing ahah 'Can you do me a flavour? ...Be sweet!' AAHHA so cute :3