wtf?

starting to think my 'sickness' is more mental then physical, except i dont know the cause of it ahahah weird yeah? xP

Sick :(

Sigh the past week, I've been feeling like shit :( everytime I eat, my stomach seems to be rejecting the food to the point where I want to throw up T.T I get this bloated feeling and I don't even eat much. I still get the hungry feeling but I don't feel like eating cos I feels like I've got something stuck in my throat. Last time I felt like this was when my ex broke up with me but I'm pretty sure I'm not depressed right now ahaha maybe I'm stressed, but I dunno about what lmao. When anything related to food becomes a problem for me then you know shit is going down ahaha

Mum put me on a diet, can't eat anything but congee and light things :( fml T.T

On clouds :D

Target locked and acquired. Name obtained. Initiate step 2 ;D

AHAHAHAHA xD uni party was hell worth it :D

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hello hello my darlings :)
how about a little bed time story? ahahahh xP just a quick update, little rants about things bothering me and just stuff going on in my life in general :)

so these days i've been reading quite a bit, which i guess is good, ahaha better then sitting at the computer and watching dramas or playing games right? xP i might go to my library to borrow books, expect i think i owe them like $30 from over due books last time so i dont really wanna go back keke xP work is same old work, still tiring, my hours vary, some weeks i only work approx 15hours or so and some weeks i work around 22ish. but hey its $$$$ xP trying very hard to save up since i saved up shit since i started working over the holidays and i earned a lot....i mean A LOT ahaha so yeah. mum always says myer is smart to hire people like me cos we spend our pay checks back on their clothes anyways lmao xP

Uni is starting to get hard to follow and its only the end of the 2nd week.....oh boy :( better start writing up notes and revising before i leave it cramped up in the last week before exams ahaha speaking of uni, i found a new target ;D its not as starkerish as it sounds....ok maybe pretty stalker, but hey going some research before i go for it? AHAHAHA xP theres actually many new good looking before at my uni :) something to look forward to aye? ;D

so i've been hearing a lot things from people the past few weeks, and some it is just ridiculous. Im sick of narrow minded people, who only see themselves and think they're right, and what makes it worst? they think they know you. hey unless you think, feel and see exactly like me, dont act like you know everything about me. You have you're own opinions, and i respect that, but dont try to enforce you're thoughts on me lmao. Also accusing me of something, that i never did or intended, is just fked up and going around spreading it is even more fked up. But then again, nowdays i dont really give a shit, how people see me, as long as my close friends accept me for who i am, doesn't matter what other people think. Wish i matured earlier, thinking back in the days, i was really self-concious of myself, always worried about what people thought, tried to copy the 'cool' stuff, ahhhh what a naive child i was.

Things have changed a lot for me since back in high school and stuff, then we'll have big groups of friends that we always hung out together, but nowdays, i only see/talk to close friends, that have made it through everything and kept in contact with me, the rest have just kind of drifted off. I guess i still do hang out with my groups, but normally only when theres a special occasion like a birthday or something then again, alot of them dont invite me out anymore, although i cant really blame them, after all i was always busy in the holidays due to work and now that uni has started i dont have time anyways. :)

as usual my blogs never make sense ahaha its just rant rant rant to no one in particular xP. good way to express yourself without someone talking back ahaha so thats about it, going to read a bit then sleep and head to the gym tomorrow, did i mention, that all the new good looking people are fit as well? ahaha more motivation i guess xP

goodnights my dears <3 :)

leave me the fk alone.

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Hello my darlings :)

Just thought I'll drop by. No one else to talk to cos I'm lonely ;) ahaha
So many changes have happened in my life since uni started, for one, juggling uni and work is hard and tiring. Then I have to fit in a bit of free time and gym here and there. Sigh. Not having time for anything else doesn't help the fact that I already feel distant from everyone :( I dunno why :(

Feeling a mixed of moods right now. So yeah, I'm ranting yet again. Ahaha
Oh reccently, couples have developed from our circle of friends. Just feels so different considering I'm not exactly a fan of couples from sane circle of friends, just brings trouble when shit goes down. But hell, I'm not the one in the relationship so I guess it doesn't matter. :) oh and I find girls who have no trust in their bfs and get jealous over things stupid, vice versa with the guys as well. Don't care if I sound like a bitch, you're just asking for an happy relationship by worrying and doubting everything. maybe this is just all a rant from a lonely single girl who's jealous of people in relationships...nahh don't thing so xP

But yeah, hope the new couples all the best. Dont cause trouble cos that drags the rest of the group down ahaha xD

Yup that's about it, I'm going to sleep with hopes to hit the gym tomorrow xD *fingers crossed*
goodnight my dears 