Saturday, February 27, 2010

RIP Grandma

Guess the shock went away and reality hit.
i randomly started crying today when some people noticed i wasn't acting normal, and they were wondering if i was ok.
Wat worst i ended up crying in front of everyone
but thankfully it was before the math exam so people prob thought i was crying cos of that...

I hate it when people say my family's perfect...well its not, no ones perfect...
i have a uncle who is hopeless at everything.
His in his late 30's and is still 'studying' to become, not the assistance of a doctor which is a nurse but the assistance of the nurse...wtf is that
He has a 14month daughter and his wife is just as bad. Both of them laze around at home. Sleep till the afternoon, uncle goes off to work for 4 hours (prob gets paid less then someone half his age)
and his wife just sits around at home. She can't speak english but wont get a job at china town cos she thinks shes 'all that' cos shes got a american citizenship
When we went over to visit, their daughter was only few weeks old, and being babies, they tend to cry alot. What was most disgusting was that my uncle passed HIS daughter who was crying in the middle of the night to my grandma, which then after he went back to bed.
I hope that little girl doesn't grow up like my uncle, always wanting the best but doesn't have the power to get it so he asks his older siblings and my grandparent's for money.

My mum says that my grandma passed away cos of the stress she was reciving from my uncle and his family....
then she goes on and compares about how she was taught in her family, how regardless if it was a boy or girl they were all taught the same way...
how my grandma always spoils my uncle and how my dads doing the same when he should be teaching him the right thing
well my uncle is fking in his late 30s, if he was gonna learn the 'right way in life' i think he would have got it ages ago. Teaching him now isn't gonna work
when his been spoiled for the last 30 years or so. My mum goes on about how much she hates my uncle, but only in front of me since she doesn't wanna cause a fight with my dad
well frankly i dun give a shit, i just feel sorry for that little girl who's prob gonna be exposed to the same teachings by her father.
oh and mum, Im not gonna go america to study, no matter how much you say would benifit me or that my grandma wanted me too.

All this pisses me off ARGH! and im prob gonna be stiked bu thunder or something for desrespecting elders but i have to let it out. Since im younger i can't say this to adults cos ill prob get slapped for it.
I feel abit better after getting this out. I feel sorry for my grandma who had to deal with a son like that but i guess its a parents responsibility how a child is brought up.

Grandma i still love you dearly and i hope you rest in peace <3 ill miss you every much although you nag alot, but i kno you mean well.





The little girl who i grew to love deeply even though our time together was only a month. Miss you sweetie ♥

Thursday, February 25, 2010

We will always love you

My grandma passed away last night right after my dad and bro rushed over to america to see her.

I guess im so shocked that i dont kno how to react when my mum told me just then.

I feel so bad, when my grandma from my mum's side passed away i cried alot but when i heard this news i don't feel as sad >< dun get me wrong, i still love this grandma alot...sigh....

RIP 'Mama' <3 we will always love you